it's not easy when your family who has always been there for you ends up not grasping this ONE thing of all things.. and so you supress is to please them and you go for about a month or so as I did.. but you can't hide it. ... I still am at this point, at least to my family now.. they don't know I've gone back.. well I still am in therapy as well so I'll get to talk to my therapist on tuesday.. I don't want this backlash but I also would like very much to be free again