Lately, I have been thinking about how far I wish to take the whole dressing thing. A part of me wishes to come pirouetting out of the closet, and the other wishes me to cower in the corner. The part that cowers is using the crutches of non-acceptance, hatred, and self-preservation. Which only create fear, and a lack self-esteem. I am not the type of person that typically intimidates with ease, but his one has me stumped.
The part that wishes to pirouette, wants to come out and play. It is starting to eat at me, and I feel it is coming. In fact the very screen name I chose is indicative of the wish to "butterfly". (Inachis is a type of butterfly) I think that I wish to do more, but simply lack the courage to start. In this since I am a coward.
My spouse accepts the dressing, but does not understand. However, that is another thread. I would love to hear anything useful on this matter. I have 13 billion questions in my head, and not one answer.