I hid behind being a musician professionally for years. People knew I was different, but I always laughed it off to them as being a "weird musician" type.
My interest in having children was mostly just read as being "sweet".
I was read deeper by a few,.. but I even threw up the smokescreen to them as well (which might not have been necessary after all). I just wasn't going to let my trans-ness interfere with my other goals.
The first thing I told my councilor last year when I wanted to get to the bottom of this was that I didn't want her to let me use the "artist" excuse. I relied on that a lot to get through life up to this point .
