I decided to quit crossdressing.
I know that many of you think that it's not possible, and of course this is not the most popular comment in a crossdressing forum. But I will try.
I will try to number my reasons:
- I had a hard family situation that made me realize that my family is the most important thing in my entire world, and that anything, including crossdressing, will top my family in priority and that my family deserves more of my time and energy.
- I made a promise to God that if this situation was solved, I was going to try to quit crossdressing.
- I'm also not willing to destroy my marriage or the image my kids have about me in case I make a mistake and get caught. And something I've learned from this forum is that getting caught is just a matter of time. Actually, this forum has helped me to take the decision. Too many stories of struggled marriages and distress.
- I'm too stressed about keeping my things hidden. I've already purged, including one particular item that was very important to me (Veronica II).
- The pink fog has been fading lately. I think that I was able to see myself and not just through my "pink eyeglasses", and understand that I will ever look as a guy. Actually, pictures of some girls here (even the best looking ones), made me realize that looking feminine is just an illusion and an act of self-confidence.
- I'm kind of appreciating more my male side. I'm feeling more confident and adequate as a male, and sometimes I feel phony or silly when I dresses
I know it's not going to be easy. I'm asking you to please wish me good luck, and to pray for me if you believe in God.
Maybe I will fail, but I'd really like to try it very hard this time. But I will try not to fail.
Thanks, and good luck!!!