Hey girls!
i need a bit advice on what to do...
I am totally in the closet (inc hiding it from my wife- but we won't go there in this thread!) and only dress when i go away with work, which is at least 1 week every month.
In a few weeks time i got a full week away, but only got meeting Mon, Wed-Fri - so have a free day on the Tues.
I have been out in public as Kelly about 6 times, usually shopping from 1-3 hours at the most, but i wanna push the boundaries out further this time and live a little! lol
I'm very nervous when i'm out, mainly cause i worry what people will think, and i find myself looking at everyone trying to see if they are looking at me - wish prob makes it look obvious then!
My main fears in public are talking to people (have only really sad 'hi' and 'thank u' to sales assistants), i get nervous when people get close (like when in a shop, etc) and also worry about the groups of lads/kids that hang around town centres!
The plan (in my mind) is to leave the hotel dressed, drive to the train station, get the train to London (lots of shops!! yay!), spend the day shopping, see the sites, take some photos, etc - then get the train back.
What i'm scared off is:
1. the train - about an hour journey, scared someone will notice, or sit next to me! (i've got this train before with work, so i know its always busy!)
2. to get around London, i'd have to use the underground, so being really close to people again!
3. Not so worried about walking around the shops, but am nervous about having to talk to any1! mainly the sales assistants, and when (and how) i get lunch!
4. The guilt - obvious the wife doesn't know, so i'd feel guilty for doing such a drastic thing!
Please help, give some advice - i really wanna do this as i don't know when i'll get another opportunity like this
...and i am becoming more and more addicted to trying to be a girl that i wanna do more and more as Kelly! lol
Thank you!
luv
kelly x