Talking with my Dad today he was telling me when I was really little my Mom would put my hair in pigtails and paint my nails. It's really messing with me... could that be the reason I do this? Am I discovering "myself" or is this just another learned behavior? Did my Mom do it because she wanted it or did I ask for it? My parents don't know of this part of my life so it makes digging into this without raising suspicion hard.