There is quite the chance that my wife now knows. I have been going to therapy and I told her that there is some things that I can't find myself to share with her just yet. Things I have carried a long time. I know she is wanting to know what it is.
I can't be to sure if she knows but last night she was cleaning our daughters craft area in our basement which happens to be right near some clothes of mine. Oh and wig, purse makeup, coat, boots. Lol! I had them stored in a cabinet where I keep all my art things and such.
I had woken up after falling asleep after reading my daughter her bedtime story. Many parents here know about that scenario. Anyway as I walked down the last steps I hear the sound of a cabinet drawer closing and well She was right there and looked a little strange. You know that look. I know that look cause I had it too.
After what seemed to be forever we simple talked about the craft area and such. Conversation seemed awkward. Now I have no idea if she did find my things. But I do know last night felt odd. We decided to go to bed shortly after. Unusual for me. I'm a night owl and work on art then. But I do sometimes go to bed at the same time. Unusual that we talked so much in bed. As If we couldn't sleep.
I will have to see what the days ahead will bring. I don't feel as frightened as I have been though. I feel I'm almost ready to tell her anyway. That is what is important.