I know I've been a bit inconsistent with posting, responding, etc., but I always keep you guys in mind when I'm having troubles, and I am very much troubled.
For those that remember me, I've been struggling with my identity for some time now, and I'm wondering:
How did you know? Was it easy for you to come to terms with? Were the consequences worth it?
Am I supposed to be this confused about dressing? How do I come to terms with the lifestyle or decide if its right for me?
I know that the fabric, material, fashion, excites me, but if I'm in constant fear of being discovered how can I ever truly enjoy it?
I feel that if this was truly something ingrained in me that this would be much easier, but I'm just not sure if its a habit, coping mechanism, or something else entirely.
I am seeking counseling to help answer these questions, but your input is appreciated. Thanks for always being there.