Hello everyone,
Been a few weeks since I wrote anything however, lately I have been having conflicts within myself.
I honestly do not know if this is the correct forum to be posting this or not so I risk being told to take it elsewhere.
I have been dressing off and on for almost my whole life in one form or another. Lately, my wife has brought "Brianna" back into the bedroom and while my dressing is not nesscessarily an erotic driven thing, it has it's ups and downs.
Dressing for me has never been about sexual pleasure or erotic fantasies. It has always been about being myself in my own comfortable skin. Now back to my wife bring Brianna into the bedroom.
We have been playing "dress up" and role reversal on occassions and I have been having thoughts of....well, being with men, but only as Brianna and never one on one as my male counter-part. That to me is just yuck. My wife knows my bi-sexuality has been put away since we got married nearing 9 years. I fear it may be surfacing at a time when I am weaker than normal.
Have been looking for medications on line and gathering information about which ones to take and what not. I have been in touch with my Therpaist about this very thing. She knows how hard it is for me to deal with this. SHe also knows that I made a choice to live as a male and to stop my Transition when I met my wife.
So emotional right now. I am not sure what more to say than this. I just wanted to vent a little and not at anyone. If anyone else has had anything similar happen in their live's, would you please leave me an email or let me know how you dealt with such strong emotions.
Thank you all very much for this forum.
Bri