This is just off the top of my head: I am getting more and more frustrated with not being able to answer a simple question: "why?"
Why do I like to wear women's clothes?
Why do I feel that urge?
Why does that urge ebb and flow?
Why can sometimes years go by without wanting to dress, then all of a sudden I *have* to do it?
Why am I stuck in limbo with it? I don't want to do makeup and a wig, but I do want to dress completely otherwise.
Why?
[sigh] I have an appt with my therapist this week to discuss a lot of these questions. I am amazingly anxious about this. I don't want to admit to him that I cross-dress. The one person that has to talk about this with me, and I am scared to reveal that about me. I dunno...
Why?
I don't know.