Kim, I can't add much that hasn't already been said. I can only say that I go through similar bouts from time to time, and that depression is usually lurking behind it. When in depression's clutches, I see every extra pound, every line and wrinkle, every flaw, every sign of maleness peeping through, and I feel like a fraud and want to hide away from the world. Sometimes I do. Once I manage to overcome the depression, I am able to see myself in a positive light again and the desire to be Wendy and to go out into the world comes back. Whether or not that is what's happening in your case, I hope you're able to find a better mental/emotional space. Maybe you need to get out the old guitar and immerse yourself in music for while--that always helps me!