I noticed that after long stints of not dressing it takes time to feel comfortable presenting en femme again. On the inside I feel that my roles and behaviors intermingle and that I am me no matter my gender presentation, but let’s face it we grow up in a world that demands we conform or suffer. Years (more than I would like to admit) of programmed behavior and hiding the ooey gooey goodness inside with a hard crunchy exterior takes time to overcome. In addition, some of us lead very guarded male lives which forces us to build those defensive ramparts even higher by monitoring our behavior in order to protect ourselves from the onslaught of the closed minded. For me it takes time to let those defenses melt away and become comfortable again in a feminine role. After a few hours or so the hard shell melts away and everything comes natural with very little conscious effort. Does anyone else experience this after a hiatus from their femme role?