Hey Marleena. Don't feel to bad, the first time I posted a thread the moderators closed it almost immediately out of concern for the welfare of others because of the subject matter and my second was not related to crossdressing so was closed, and my third did not last long either. heee heee. Sometimes I think I really am the devil or at least seriously crazy.
Your heart was in the right place. Life is therapy all you have to do is learn what love is and what it is not.