I WALKED OUT MY DOOR!!! I was dressing all night having a nice girl’s night in like I usually do. Lately There has been this little voice in my head that says “just do it! Just walk out the door! You have to do it NOW!”. About a month ago I got to the door and turned around. Not tonight!!! Earlier in the day I went to Walmart for my groceries and was feeling the urge to shop for a few things for Patti (me, I hate using the third person, but you know what I mean). I have only ever bought one or two things in a store in my life so I was pushing my comfort level. I got a pair of leggings, a lipstick and a new eye shadow palate. It was a great feeling. Tonight I rented a movie and went through my routine to get ready (like I was going out to a club of course). I wore my new leggings and my new eye shadow and lipstick. I dressed to the nines with all of my accessories. I watched my movie, and when it was over that little voice in my head started up. You’re all dressed up GO OUT!! I figured I could jump in my car and just drive around a bit. I put on a big wool coat to cover up a bit and not look so obvious. I turned off all of the lights in my apartment and sat at the window for about 10 minutes just looking out for any movement. Of course my neighbor came out and jumped in her car and drove off. I took this as a good sign. Surely no one else would come out now, right? I live in an apartment complex with a private entrance that leads out to the parking lot. It’s about 20 yards to my car, but the lot is very well lit and all of the units face the lot. I went to my door and listened. When I heard nothing, I opened it. I peeked out, and after about a minute of heart pounding silence, I did it. I walked outside into the night air. My heels made a noise I had never heard before. High heels on concrete. What a thrill!!! For me, that was the best part, the walk to my car out in a public space for the first time ever. I made it without incident. Once in the car I did see my one neighbor look out his window at me, but I was in my car with the headlights on so I’m sure he didn’t see me. I drove off in total bliss. This was it, what I have wanted to do for EVER! I was out! I drove around for just a short time and really couldn’t think of anywhere to go. After a bit I decided to drive back home. Now getting back in my apartment would present more of a challenge. People are often outside smoking or walking dogs. I decided to park directly in front of my door instead of in the back where I usually do. Big mistake. To do this I put myself right in front of my other neighbor’s windows. Sure enough, their shades were up. Just as I was opening my door and steping out, we made eye contact. He looked out to see who was paring in front of his unit, ahhhhhh! I played it cool and made a beeline for my door. He knows my car so I know he is wandering what is going on. Either he thinks I’m a crossdresser (oh well) or some chick was driving my car and parking it where I don’t normally park. The truth is, I don’t really care. That’s the place I am right now. Let him think what he wants. I am a crossdresser, and now I’m one who has ventured outside!!! I feel great! I want to go out again! Thanks for reading this really has been a great day for me. One that I really needed. Here is to more great days ahead. xx Patti.
I took a few pics tonight I’ll attach. The one in the coat just before I walked outside.