Hi welcome to the club.
I think everyone here would have different responses to your questions. Speaking for myself, I love the colors, styles, and variety to fem clothing. Really I love anything that lets me break out of the macho male mold that society has cast me in.
In regards to Why...no idea
I do it because I enjoy it, I've had a powerful attraction to fem things since I was a pre-teen. I find the crossdressing experience fills a void, or satisfies an emotional need for me. I don't really know a better way to explain my feelings on it.
There were sexual feelings earlier on, because of the excitement of doing something wrong or taboo, and the excitement of finally getting to express the girl inside, coupled with raging teenaged hormones, but that eventually fades.
Dressing fem just feels pleasant and natural now, but I'm not entirely sure where it's going to take me, but I'm trying to just go with the flow.
Hope that answers some of your questions.
Lots of Luv
Ashley
