I would suggest maybe picking a name of one of Your good friends from your childhood. maybe put a twist on it but then you can have good memories associated with the name you choose and if he is in the closet with everyone else and someone over hears you refer to him as the chosen name, you could say you where referring to a childhood friend.
I chose my name because when I sign my given name I omit the I in Kevin and it appears to me as Keri as I dot my N in cursive.
I always liked the name Alicia
Have fun with it
Keri
