Well this is something I've been pondering for a little while and if your willing to share what is the "normal" you like, what does he do, how is he different than you dressed or when your posting here. I'd be more than willing to share my more than likely sad sack story with you all, I just want to be sure that asking this is ok and they're would be some interest and don't worry feel free to exclude all you want.
Well it looks like enough have responded that I'm willing to share me, how to explain myself.... well I'll start with a little story of my life that defigns who I am and hopefully who'll I'll become. I'll start darker and go into the light so don't worry. ok well when I was younger I was an outcast, didn't trust anyone except for a few close friends, I guess I was over emotional and for that and the fact I was the tallest in class I was often made fun of, and I had no confidence to do anything about it so I was a mess all throughout my school years, but I had one thing going for me I was smart, at least smarter than anyone else in my class but that aint saying much. My Mother used to beat me, not my sisters though just me, one instance floats in my head, because I liked science I liked to play with fire, and when she found matches she pinned me to a corner and started to attack me and when I kicked her off she just came back twice as angry. My Father was always my hero the one person I could hide behind from her. As I got older she calmed down, but is still nuttier than squirrel droppings, that is until she started drinking after she was cured of cancer, one night she was sitting there in front of me going on and eventually I said f-you but you know the full version and she said you can't look me in the face and say that... so I did and she punched me directly in the face, at that moment I cracked and every childhood bit of hate raged through me like nothing else, and from then on I haven't had problems especially since she quit.
Now past that dark stuff, all those previous experiences defined me and made me a better person, it tought me that no matter what in the end being mean to any one will not only ruin they're life but it'll take you down an unwanted road, but being josh isn't as bad as it sounds, I have 2 sisters, I love animals, any form of tech, even though I wish I was born in the 80's (fast cars, long hair, and great rock), I left high school before senior year to get my ged and go to a technical school for automotive but discovered it aint for me, I've put some though into it and will most likely transition once I leave home, I hope to live in vegas when I leave, I love art and photography but don't do any of my own, I'm currently unemployed but will know tomorrow if I have a job at best buy. All in all being me isn't all that bad but I've decided that it isn't how I wish to live anymore and so the other half will end up being Josh hehe but I'm not losing much and nothing I can't bear to live without.
Ok now thats some kind of biography, even if it is a bit jumbled up but thanks for reading it feels good to release it all
If you don't like the way I'm livin', you just leave this long haired country girl alone:
I do help take care of my Grandsons though at this point. I'm contemplating possibly getting more involved in the TG community however. I'm not averse to going out and promoting awareness by giving talks to groups or whatever.My purpose is to do things that are value added and become the best person I possibly can. That is one way to win people over.
The side that most people see is still on the same path, to try and show compassion, love, and be non judgemental.
