Katie I feel the exact same way you do. There is nothing I love more than being Riley, but there is a feeling sometimes that I need to give it up and move on. I have quit many times and had no desire to dress but for me it just kind of takes one thing and I'm right back doing it. I dont know how things will go in the future as I'm fixin to move out of my parents house, I may give it up or the desire will grow. But I guess the only way to see is to let things take their coarse and just enjoy the time you have being Katie.