Veronica,
You are not alone. Reading your original post, it is almost exactly like looking into a mirror for myself. I come from a similar background, my parents are very conservative and religious. I was brought in a traditional value home. I myself, ponder many of the same elements your asking yourself. The thing is, those questions are why I am here on this site. I've even joined a local support group, to help me ponder those same questions with others in person. I don't have answers, and I may never, but what I do have is....
"To thy self, be true". I can not hide who I am, from myself. SO I am choosing to embrace myself. Explore even, to discover who I really am, and hopefully become the person I really want to be.
I hope my words find you some comfort, and I'm always free and willing to talk if you ever want to.