Hi girls. I have just binned all my nice clothes including lots of nice underwear. Was a ticking timb bomb waiting for my stash to be found and think I could not live with the consequences. The biggest miss is going to be wearing heels - absolutely loved wearing them. I am going to just have to dream of being a woman from now on. x
In the words of Ahnold, "I'll be bach"
We've all been through it many times.
There must be a powerful reason[s] for doing this Marion and I feel sorry for you having to do this.
Yes, some of us will make light of it saying you will be back again but I worry that you will suffer from doing this.
I hope your situation will change as soon as possible and you will be free to be the real you again.
All the best,
Suzy
Thanks Suzy. Yes there are other reasons. I get so frustrated as get very few opportunities to be me so I think is it worth the hassle!! My thoughts and feelings are as strong as ever. just wish I could be Marion all day every day. life is such a bitch. x
As a girl with a few miles on the clock I can tell you now, you never know what’s just around the corner.
As Nicole said, you will be back when your situation permits it.
hugs
I read in a previous thread that you are married, and, your wife does not know. It also seemed from your thread that you may be preoccupied with cross dressing to the extent it may be consuming too much of your thoughts. Everything in life should be done with moderation. You may be able to suppress your urges for a period of time. Sooner or later you'll be tempted to resume dressing. When you do revisit cross dressing do not approach it as a compulsion.
Sorry, Marion. It happens, most of us have been through it. It can be kinda hard managing all those emotions, huh?
Marion. Girl I have done what you have and the feelings do not go away I tried everything I could to stop this. But no. I wish you all the luck in the world. Janet
I feel for you. I think with less opportunity leads to this thing of thinking about it all the time. Your purse is going to regret purging when you start to buy new things again at some future dat. I think most go through this process over and over agai. Many are lucky and someone who supports them. I wish you luck .
Life is too short not to be happy!
Too bad you're in the UK... I'd ask where that bin was and what sizes you had....
See you soon....
I don't wear women's clothes, I wear MY clothes !
Hi Marion, I just want to echo Suzy's comments (well, and everyone else's). Like Suzy, I have a few 'miles on the clock' too and have been in a similar situation to yourself. Circumstances can change over time, and you will get other opportunities. And believe me this is never going to go away! You will regret purging, but sometimes that is what we have to do for plain practical reasons. Nowadays and for me, the kids are grown up, my wife knows, but whilst she finds it weird and will have no part of it, at least I can keep my 'stash' and she doesn't pry. I even get space to CD.
But I must say that I am now able to feel like Kaz 24/7 whatever I am wearing. And that is a good place to get to!
Tale care
Kaz xx
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Thanks girls lots of constructive and helpful comments. I will defo return to dressing as I know the urge will never go away. Perhaps in the future things may change and i can be and feel like a woman more often. Problem I have is I am very sensitive to what people think of me and not thick skinned at all so if i was found out any fall out would hurt me so much. Wish I was as brave as a lot of girls on here. Only immediate solution and hope would be to pretend away for work and meet up with friendly sole for full dressing and girly things with no fear x
Binned?Originally Posted by marion
[SIGPIC]http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/image.php?type=sigpic&userid=82706&dateline=137762 0356[/SIGPIC]Linda
As others have said, many of us have been through this, and almost all of us who have purged come back even stronger! I look back on some of the items I purged and would give anything to have them back!
I had a pair of black leather 4" pumps that were soooooo comfortable I could actually run in them...haven't been able to find such a comfortable pair since!
"Masquerading as a man with a reason, my charade is the event of the season" ('Carry On Wayward Son' by Kansas)
Binned means thrown out or put in the trash for American friends
Binned?
Where did ya put them at ? I want to go threw an see what I can find for myself . Thanx !!!!
Yull Find Out !!! lol,,,,
Thanks for the explanation. I would rather see folks donate their unwanted clothing to charity than throw them in the trash. No matter how bad off we think we are, there are people out there who can wear our unwanted clothing. In some cases, clothing allows them to get a job and become self sufficient.
[SIGPIC]http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/image.php?type=sigpic&userid=82706&dateline=137762 0356[/SIGPIC]Linda
It happens only you know whats best for you.
All that I would want to say to you, Marion, has been well expressed already, so I post just to let you know there is another who shares your frustration, and offers you a virtual smile and hug in commiseration.
Marion, I don't know your history or why you decided to "purge", but if you really want or need to stop crossdressing, you've got to stop thinking about it and stop participating in or even reading crossdressing forums.
Find something else to take up your time and involve yourself in it. Best of Luck.
[SIGPIC]http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/image.php?type=sigpic&userid=82706&dateline=137762 0356[/SIGPIC]Linda
idk, having come off of an purge most recently... i recommend you NOT!!! to do this..... store it away for now.....as others recommended, as strong as you are determined to pur=ge now, it'll come back and ur regret it
meliissa
Marion
My deepest sympathies to you. You are making a choice between two consequences, some call this "between a rock and a hard place". I found myself between these two rocks, I did not even have a need to purge...I just simply dressed up in my wifes nice things when she wasn't around. Then came the day that I forgot to put her dress and panties away. I left them lying on the bed. When she asked me why they were there, I could'nt lie, (nor could I even think up a good one). I told her the truth...and she left. I just described my last Christmas to you. She left me on December 27th 2011, but not before telling everyone that she and I knew about my crossdressing...including our grown children.
So, I understand your desire to purge to avoid such consequences as I have just described. But I also know that trying to live without crossdressing was a consequence all of it's own, and it was impossible for me to resist it. I just kept it so well hidden because I didn't have my own wardrobe, I could wear both my wife's, and my stepdaughter's clothing. Especially the skirts and dresses, they were an easy fit for me.
I wish you the best of luck in your endeavor...maybe it will work for you. If it doesn't, you are obviously among people who understand here.
Even if you dig a hole in the back yard and bury them with mothballs, you get a second chance at it.
Arrgh! I think you have got the message about purging now.
I suppose being found out was a bigger fear.
Work on your elegance,
and beauty will follow.
I hate that F word fear. It kept me in guilt and shame for 30 years, and yes I purged a few times along the way. I used to think that I would rather die and I really do mean die if someone fond out. I fond this site one year ago Dec 25, and the next month I fond a therapist and I cried when I talked to her on the phone for the first time. It was the first time I had told someone other than my wife and I was very scared. A year later and I'm thinking on how to tell my adult kids and friends, I don't like living in fear. And if I was to get caught now they would just have to deal with it and so would I. I wish I had fond someone to talk to 30 years ago. Don't wait 30 years to love this side of who you are.
Hugs Janelle
"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" Anais Nin.
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