After reading through some of the newer threads a gg responded to a post that got me thinking about why I dress. I suppose it is a sexual fetish of sorts. I have always been someone who has an active sexual imagination and have explored many but not all of my fantasies. I have always felt uncomfortable with the idea of physical monogamy but never comfortable with the idea of true intimacy with more than one person. I think it has taken me some years to understand that ultimately that is probably who I am. I find it like being between a rock and a hard place in a way.
I am reasonably sure that my levels of sexual interest would be similar if I dressed or not. But dressing not only excites me, but letting my femininity out makes me feel the most satisfied in that respect. It also leaves me a little befuddled. I love my wife to death but just see no realistic chance of coming out without the probability of losing her. And so at times I think of purging, but I would still have the same sexual interests which would probably be nearly as offensive to my wife.
Sorry for the rant....just thinking outloud here I suppose.