I've never written anything in a forum before, although I've been reading this one constantly for days now. I found out the other day the my boyfriend likes to crossdress and we had a really healthy conversation about it. I may have pulled it out of him a little and I feel a little bad about that but I'm glad we were able to be open with one another. I keep thinking I'm glad I found out only a few months into our relationship. I fell in love with him even more when he told me.
I am a very accepting person. I have dated both women and men and have been in a healthy and supportive relationship with a FTM trans. I feel like because of this I have become very sexually free and this is no bother to me. However, I do have some concerns (which I have voiced to him but still can't get out of my head, so I thought this would be a nice place to share and clear my mind).
I love him because he is a handsome, intelligent supporting and wonderful man. Our life intimately is unlike any other experience I've ever had, before and after he told me his secret (I think his more sensitive/feminine side makes him a great lover btw). At first I was worried I might not find it attractive, I was afraid. I have NEVER experienced this before so I couldn't rule out the slim chance that this would be a total turn off for me (gladly it wasn't). However, I am concerned that now that his secret it out he's going to want to do it all the time or something. I still love my man when he's manly. I love him no matter what. He tells me it's not important to him and that it's very infrequent but I know him and my heart is telling me otherwise. I can see it in his eyes. I know he wants to explore this more. Before he lived with me, he really couldn't. I want to know now so that we can continue with our healthy communication. Another thing is, he mentioned finding other CDs hot when they're dressed and they make it look really good but not because they are CDs but because they're hot women. I asked if he had any feelings for men and he says no. I believe him and to be honest, I wouldn't care if he did. I know he loves me. I just keep going back to my relationship with my trans gf. I remember how she worked up to telling me and once she did it wasn't long before she was my boyfriend and it was a compulsion for him. Once I accepted that my gf would one day be my bf and he finally had acceptance and love, everything changed so quickly. And no, I don't think my bf wants to actually become a girl, I just wonder if now that I know and he knows I like it, will it go to some sort of next level?
I guess I'm rambling on about nothing. Maybe I'm looking for some support. I'm not sure. But any advice anyone can give me about any of this would be great. I want to continue our healthy growing relationship on the great path it has embarked on. He is the most incredible man I have ever met. It's unfortunate that he suffered in silence and fear because this is so taboo. It pains me to know how he must have felt... People should really learn more about it growing up. It wouldn't be a big deal at all. Everyone deserves to be happy and loved for exactly who they are. Thanks for reading (: