Although I have heard a few negative things about crossdressers from people around me and don't want this desire to control/affect my life to much I can't shake the desire. Everytime I look at anything to do with makeup I want to be able to buy and o my own makeup. I love the pretty look girls get from makeup especially eye makeup. I also love the dresses and heels and wish I had some of my own. This is letting me realize the biggest reason I crossdress is I want to be pretty/sexy in makeup, a dress, and heels...