I feel like I'm hovering over a huge chasm, waiting to fall...
My wife and I have been seeing a couples counsellor. Yesterday, I finally admitted to myself, to my wife and to the counsellor that my crossdressing feelings have changed and that I have full-on gender dysphoria. I was very shaky and couldn't speak for a few minutes after that and my heart is still pounding, wondering where this is going to take me and us.
Luckily my wife took this very calmly, even admitting that it explains a lot of things such as my moodiness and depression over the last few days. I'm going to arrange to see a gender counsellor to sort things out and see what these feelings really mean.
Sorry if this is somewhat of a downer post, but I had to get this out. Keeping it inside has filled my head to the point of bursting.