In your case Julie I don't think delaying was that unusual with the WW2 generation. Different attitudes prevailed back then I think. But oddly enough I think I too would have declined the offer of the farmer's daughter too.
I was very late in having sex not through any lack of interest but simply opportunity and my innate ability to completely miss the signs. Neither my gaydar or straightdar worked at all. I think my first sexual experience with a man was in my mid thirties and my first time with a woman with full sex was aged 42. Even then I was dating her for months before I made a move.
Was it anything to do with CDing, well maybe. But when I first started wearing girl's clothes. I rationalised it as being an attempt to get close to girls by becoming one even though I always fervently wished and wished I would wake up one morning as a girl. Ah the confusion of puberty!
More than anything though I think it was my personality that held me back. I am shy, feel I'm ugly and unattractive. Why would anyone want to have sex with me runs the line of thought. On the other hand is this way of thinking the result of my gender dysphoria? It's a chicken and egg situation. Which came first?
It's difficult to say!
