I think sometimes we tend to want to analyze and figure out why we CD as that is the nature of the human "beast" to question ourselves. I know I used to wonder and get to the point of being anxious as to why I did it. I've established, for myself at least, that is has to do with addressing deep feelings that were buried long ago and were not considered proper (at that time) for a boy to have. Funny how some things seem to stick with us all our lives. At some point, however, after accepting my feelings and taking ownership of them I decided to just enjoy the CDing and let the chips fall where they may. I'm not overly self consuming and self centered and care a great deal for my friends and family. There are a couple of threads going on as to disclosure prior to marriage and the like so we won't go there.
Suffice it to say I've pretty much stopped trying to analyze it for the most part and simply enjoy it. While I know questioning our own motives is a basic part of the human condition, I refuse to beat myself over the head about something that seems to be a very basic part of me. Too much time wasted in that respect when I could be putting the time to better use.So my question here is: "Do you analyze your CDing or just enjoy it?" Happliy I've decided to do the latter.