I have never felt feminine or masculine and I do not try to act feminine or masculine. I just simply try to be natural and live effortlessly as that feeling of being comfortable in my own skin. I cannot tolerate that feeling of being self conscious as that concern for how others perceive me. I do not want to constantly be standing outside of myself as if I'm trying to see me through their eyes.
In my opinion this leads to emotional problems and reminds me of emotional aspects of gender dysphoria which I have finally escaped from and do not ever want back in my life. I'm done with the crazy train thank you very much and do not want to get back on.
People perceive me as possibly being one or the other or some blending of both but that is their perception.
Their perception is unique to them as to what makes a man manly or a woman womanly.
Some experience me as a masculine woman and others as a feminine woman and both would be true because I move between them depending on my moods or interests.
