Femininity and Female Identity

[Ezekiel]

You've found a really diplomatic way of asking, "is it all in your head?" however, I sense no malice in your question, just academic curiosity.

I'm sorry I didn't want to sound like I'm denying your reality or anything like that. No way. I just hoped to understand more and help me clear a bit of confusion, which you and Isha both did very well.

Sorry, you are way off base here in trying to link dissociative identity disorder to those of us who do not fit neatly within the TG spectrum.

No, I wasn't trying to link it to the disorder, but to dissociation of things, say, compartmentalization in the brain. But you have explained perfectly that what you feel is no such a thing. Thank you, for that is what I was looking for, information from experience.

Gender is an internalized sense of self not a collage of feminine or masculine traits. Indeed if I were to ask you what defines you as a man and you cannot speak in terms of traits or societal upbringing based on stereotypical concepts of masculine or feminine . . . how would you define what being a man is?

Absolutely true, I would define it in the very same grounds you define your state.

Now I will say this post does confuse me slightly. You indicate you have a strong male identity yet you wish to alter you body to be more female. Normally surgical alteration to align one's birth sex physiology with a target gender is associated with being TS. Are you saying that you would alter your body to female (FFS, BAS) but still live your life as a man? Or would you live your life as a woman? If it is as a man, I would posit that your male identity is not as strong as you think.

Been through years of confusion because of this, but no, really, I am not a woman. Just like you described your sense of self through gender, that is pretty much the same I feel even if my body would have been slightly modified.

Its all about the image. What Reine said here:

And CDers are attracted to the ways that girls adorn themselves

Except a bit more extreme in my case. Who knows why, but just as there is a big scale of variation among CDers, I'm probably on one of the poles.

I didn't attempt to end my life, and begin a grueling two year transition ultimately concluding with gender reassignment surgery because of some faulty mental construct - presuming you meant a psychological or social construct

Of course I absolutely agree here, gender is ingrained in the mind, and we all deal with it how we are supossed to.

In the end, all I wanted to know with my post is if it was truly possible to switch genders given its nature of being hardwired in the brain, but now I see how you Isha and Saikotsu experience it, and I'm convinced now. Thanks for helping me understand gender-fluidity.