I was wondering if it is normal for me to feel ashamed and guilty about my desire to dress and look and act like a female? I have admitted to myself that I am a transvestite. I love to dress in female clothing and wear make-up and pretend I'm female. I'm not going to lie, there is a sexual aspect as well but I love the way female clothing feels and looks. I love to imagine myself as a woman and fantasize about looking like a girl and being a girl. I just feel guilty about it. Especially after "the act". I'm just struggling with this. I have hidden it for years and I feel alone.