I'm seeing a therapist now and she says I should not feel guilty about being somewhere on the TG scale. Yet, we still have to face life.
The girl accross.the street plays and goes to school with my daughter. If she found out, it would be all over the school and my daughter would be devastated. So, I have to try to minimize my look when coming or going in my car. Her mother got a long look at me once, but she either thought I was my sister, or she used discretion in not telling her daughter.
The other night, my wife had a coworker spend the night. I forgot she was here. I woke up in a sweat, so walked down the hallway wearing a purple, nylon, shiny, female pj top and granny panties to turn on the AC. I noticed the light on in the guest room and the kitchen light was on to. Not more than 6 feet from me. Then I remembered! She was up and around. I quickly got back to my room.
Had she seen me, it would have made my wife extremely angry and she would worry that others would find out.
How am I supposed to embrace my feminine side and be comfortable with who I am when it's so unnatural to others? For just myself, I don't really care anymore if someone finds out. But I care for the sake of my family. Just venting girls.