Ok, I've wandered on the Crossdressing Forum for a while. But I'm unsure if I should stay, or move over to the Transexual Forum. I'm seeing a therapist now in hopes that I can start HRT soon. I'm more comfortable dressing and presenting as a woman than as male. It's hard for me to think of myself as John, all my thoughts inside are as Joan.
My wife said that my face has a feminine look to it naturally. My hands are tiny, all the gloves I have are a man's small. My chiropractor, told me that my hips are flared open more like a woman than a man. He has tried and tried to get them to close, but no go they are open. I'm 5' 9" so I'm a little tall but not by much. My wife is jealous of my hourglass shape, we measured me and if I lose a bit of my tummy I'll be truly a hourglass.
For the longest time I haven't wanted my male parts, any of them. I've lost track of how many times I've written in my journal that I want it to be gone. I'm willing to keep what's between my legs for my wife. Not sure if she is interested in using it though. She has made it clear though that if it goes, she goes. This week has been a bit of a learning curve for me trying to read my wife. So she told me "I want you to be happy, and (gesturing to my feminine presenting) if that makes you happy I'm all for it. Doesn't mean I have to love it." So I've got a wife that is willing to help, but I'm not sure about much else at this time.
Would the fact that I might keep what is between my legs disqualify me from the Transexual Forum? Because I'm looking forward to the day where I won't get "sir" anymore only "ma'am". All of this makes me think I should be over in the Transexual Forum. Could you ladies weigh in for me?