You mean this? https://www.biomotionlab.ca/html5-bml-walker/
In response to the OP's question,
the complete inability to even try using make up, and the rest, trying to make myself look even remotely feminine. Having had surgery on my face when young, leaving a non symmetrical scar on one side of my face, there would never be any way to look right, no matter what I did. Perhaps a professional theatrical make up artist, with all the skills that could turn Karloff into Frankenstein's monster, could make my face look normal, but me, I just don't have that ability, and it would never be able to make me beautiful, anyway. I'd just be a homely female with a facial deformity, instead of a male one.