Hey everybody, my name's Marc. I've been browsing here for awhile, and have seen nothing but support for everybody involved. I couldn't help but sign up.
I'm looking for some advice, this is my first time going public with any of this. I'm sure a very familiar position for everybody else here.
Everybody has their niche, and mine seems a little different, or at least maybe I just need to meet more people. To start, I'm a mid 30s male, in a very happy 5 year relationship with a wonderful woman, marriage probably coming within the next year. I don't do any dressing per se, but I like to create and wear my own set of breasts. Ive been doing it since college years, and have gotten pretty good at making them very convincing, very realistic feeling. I've held short of buying a form for myself, I'm happy with how I've been able to make them. The feel, the look, is pretty spot on. Maybe depending on the future I'll step up to a proper form.
Here's where I'm confused. I don't really have any interest in any women's clothes, any underwear, just about anything. The bras are only used for creating the feel and form, and I don't have any interest in wearing a bra, or anything else, outside of having a nice pair on my chest. I like how it feels, I like how they look. It's... comforting, relaxing. When I was single I would spend an entire day just doing hobbies, watching TV, just hanging out normally, except with a nice pair of boobs.
I'm very comfortable with my body. I have been over and through this for years, and with a therapist. I just like having boobs sometimes. I'm not gay, I don't have dismorphia, and have no thoughts of being trans. I have nothing against anybody else's path, but my path is just having boobs when i want. I have no feelings of being anything other than being the man I have become, except sometimes I have breasts. Not only do I enjoy them, but there's a ... yearning. It keeps calling me back. I haven't done anything since this relationship started,except very recently. The yearning is back. And I don't want any secrets.
Anybody else have this experience? I love all of the expressions here, and the support. Is this even dressing? I mean, im strapping on fake female body parts, just not the clothes on top. Does it even matter what its called ?
This is my little niche, and expanding it doesnt really interest me. I am comfortable in my own skin, have no feelings of being in the wrong body. No thoughts that i was ever sexually fluid. The most I've ever gone outside is nighttime walks in the winter or fall when I can wear a thick jacket. It's always been only in private.
Now, some advice needed. I want to tell my SO. She knows I'm a boob guy, I love hers to death, and I love her to death.
How do I tell her? This has been a private secret of mine for ...15 years now, nobody has ever seen or known anything. I'm seriously nervous about telling her, it's tough. It's been so private, and it's hard letting somebody in that close, all while being afraid of confusing the relationship. Again, I'm sure that feeling is very familiar here.
Any advice is greatly appreciated. I'm definitely going to hang it here alot more