Lately I have had an urge to crossdress more. I don't know if it is the cooler weather, the time change, or the fact that what would have been my 44th wedding anniversary is next Friday. I have been wearing a bra and forms to bed as it helps me sleep better. Then I wear bra and forms most of the day hybrid dressing. Then the last couple of days I started wearing a bra while in full male mode. I don't know if it is because of the anxiety of going through my 2nd year of not having my wife on our anniversary or it's just that it's cooler and more fun to dress. I am not getting upset with the approaching anniversary like I did last year. So I have no idea what is driving it. My wife was always accepting of my dressing,so it isn't like I can now do it anytime I want. Because I was dressing regularly when she was alive. Mainly because she enjoyed it as much as I did. It was fun to dress up and see her reaction.