Hi. Michelle:
Lovely name, BTW...lol
I totally understand what you are saying. Personally, I have long believed that perhaps the single biggest draw-back to being a crossdresser is the feeling of isolation. Crossdressing can make a person feel very lonely. For me, the key has been to accept my femme self and get comfortable with her. (Not impossible, but definitely easier said than done.) I suppose there are some who would contend that I live a dysfunctional life. I disagree. Also, as I read in at least one other reply to your post, another very important lesson for me has been to learn that there is a difference between feeling embarrassed and feeling ashamed. Being Michelle can (and does) cause a bit of embarrassement, but I am NEVER ashamed of being Michelle.
Anyway, these are a couple of things that have helped me break through the lonlieness barrier in my own life...maybe they'll help you, too.
Hang in there and keep your head up.
Michelle
