The reason I ask is because I have a feeling this day is coming soon. This may get a little long winded, but I will try to keep it short. I have always been the black sheep of my family. I think a lot of it is because I am adopted. No matter what I do or say, I am never right in my parents eyes. Back in high school, I had spent a month grounded because my mother saw my car out and about when I was suppose to be in school. I could not convince her that I was in school and that someone else at the school had the same car I had. A couple of years ago, my mother called and ripped me a new one because she had heard that I quit my job. Last fall, my dad and I got into a huge fight because I told him my ggf and I had tickets to the Ohio State - Bowling Green Football game. He swore up and down that they didn't play each other. Anyhow, last month, I got accused of doing something that I did not do, but they are positive I did it because so and so said so. I've gotten to the point that I mail them my trailer payment (I live in a trailer, but it's in their name). I live less than a mile away, but I think if I were to seem them face to face things would get ugly. My sister is getting married in 3 weeks, and I am going only to support her. How long I will stay for the reception, I do not know. I'm in the wedding, but I'm not happy about it. Her and our mom stole a bunch of my ggf's and my ideas of our wedding that was suppose to happen in two weeks. We put ours off because of my sister deciding to get married what would have been a week after our wedding. Anyhow, I am so sick of the way I am getting treated. I am 32 years old, have been on my own since half way through my senior year in high school, and spent 10 years in the army. I have a good paying job, pay my child support for two kids. I live by myself, so trailer payment, car payment, lot rent, utilities, and all of that I do on my own. My home is far from a bachelor pad. No matter what I do, I can't and will never get respect from my parents. They think they know everything about me. The don't know that I lived out of my car numerous of times in my early twenty's. They don't know that I just had tests done for melanoma (tests were negative). They have no clue about me. The only thing they worry about is how I make them look. One time back in my early teens, the police stopped at the house to question me about somethings. I still recall being scorned. The words "what will our neighbors think about seeing a cop in the drive way" still linger to this day. I hope this paints a good picture. I should add to the fact that I don't know how many relationships I have been in have failed because my ggf could stand them. Well, I got caught dressing once or twice when I was younger. I got the talk, and that was about it they think. They have no clue that I do it know a lot more often and try to be as fem as I can. In a way, I almost wish I would get caught so word would get back to them. However, I want to see the look on their face when the words come out of my mouth and tell them that I like to dress up as a women. I'd love to see their jaws drop when I tell them that I have done it since they had caught me 20 some years ago. I wouldn't be saying it to be vindictive, it would come out in a fit of anger. Almost in a rage, just to let them know that if I am the black sheep of the family, oh well. I would be proud to know that I am the black sheep for being a crossdresser. The sad part is, I know they are still my parents, but all of this will come out if an argument sometime soon., I am going to try to be civil at my sisters wedding, but I can only bite my tongue for so long. I hope I am wrong about all of this coming out to them, but I have a strong feeling it's going to all come out, and not in away I mean for it to. So, if anyone has ever outed yourself in a fit of anger, what happened afterwords. I can see what is going to happen when this all comes out, but afterwords, I do not know. I guess I am looking for advice for after the fact.