helenr
02-17-2009, 12:08 AM
I am 62 and have been transgendered for over 55 years. Over this period of time, and clearly more in the past twenty years, I have wondered why -like the rest of you.
I sometimes wonder if rejection by other males-starting when I was so young and had a somewhat weaker look, softer like the girls, an unusual first name that didn't sound like 'one of the guys', the youngest one in the class,etc-things that didn't scream out 'all boy'--wasn't as much a factor in the decision to try to switch sides.
Maybe a sense of belonging and acceptance by the girls who naturally disliked the bratty boys and welcomed me as they could see I was an outcast of sorts--maybe this safe harbor drew me into their world more.
I didn't want to play with Barbies-actually I was pre Barbie I think--but just didn't like boy stuff-rough sports or any sports, guns, playing in the dirt, pushing and shoving.
I wonder if others too found themselves drawn into the world of women indirectly and liked what they sensed? I mean this as opposed to a sense of hating your boy parts and yearning for a vagina from the youngest age as clearly some of the more classic transsexual reportings. And then over time it sort of made sense to get more engrossed in trying out for the pink team, the crossdressing, makeup, whatever seemed appropriate for females.
How has it worked for others? helen
I sometimes wonder if rejection by other males-starting when I was so young and had a somewhat weaker look, softer like the girls, an unusual first name that didn't sound like 'one of the guys', the youngest one in the class,etc-things that didn't scream out 'all boy'--wasn't as much a factor in the decision to try to switch sides.
Maybe a sense of belonging and acceptance by the girls who naturally disliked the bratty boys and welcomed me as they could see I was an outcast of sorts--maybe this safe harbor drew me into their world more.
I didn't want to play with Barbies-actually I was pre Barbie I think--but just didn't like boy stuff-rough sports or any sports, guns, playing in the dirt, pushing and shoving.
I wonder if others too found themselves drawn into the world of women indirectly and liked what they sensed? I mean this as opposed to a sense of hating your boy parts and yearning for a vagina from the youngest age as clearly some of the more classic transsexual reportings. And then over time it sort of made sense to get more engrossed in trying out for the pink team, the crossdressing, makeup, whatever seemed appropriate for females.
How has it worked for others? helen