One Year on T Anniversary Today

[SirTrey]

Well, today it's one year since I started on T and I have a lot of feelings on it and a lot of changes to report...It seems like the year flew by in a lot of ways, but I guess that's what happens when you get older, lol....I guess because I am transitioning later in life, that kind of scares Me because I finally feel so RIGHT, I don't want to see life fly by quite so quickly....LOL...Anyway, I woke up this morning and took a long look in the mirror, really taking in the effects of the testosterone and what a year on it has given Me....and, once again, I thought of how lucky I am to live in a time when I can actually DO something to make Myself feel better being trans....Yes, it took Me a long time to get to the point where I was actually able to do this, as I felt it was only right to let My kids grow up and have a quote "normal" life...Not that I think that people who choose to transition when their kids are younger are wrong, more that for ME, it was a personal choice to choose letting the focus be on THEM throughout their childhoods as opposed to being on Me for being trans (which inevitably happens when a person transitions)....I remember the first time I vocalized it to someone....it was My then partner, Toni....Toni was pressing Me for what was "wrong" with Me, why I was so unhappy, etc., and kept at it for so long, I finally blurted out, "You really want to know what's wrong? Fine. I'm a man in a woman's body. How does THAT grab you??" Then we both stood there, shocked....I don't know who was more shocked, Toni because of what I had said, or Me for having finally said it to someone....From there, the life transition began....I started dressing and living only male....then, changed My name legally....then, ultimately, started on T.....so the whole process has been far longer than a year....but....one year on T and I am liking what I see a LOT....:) My body shape has totally changed, though I still need to have chest surgery, which I will when I can afford it....My voice is deep...My face shape has changed tremendously, neck is thicker....Shoulders are wider and very solid....Arms are muscular....I have a ton of body hair coming in, and a lot of it has thickened and darkened now....My stomach is actually furry, lol....and the face, that I really LOVE....I have a LOT of facial hair now....and it's getting all thick and wirery....I remember when I first went to the doctor to start on T....He said, within one to two years, you will walk out the door and virtually no one will be able to tell that you were ever anything but male...and I thought, is that possible?? It is....I pass easily in public now....and on the phone....The only time I still have issues with passing is with people that I know, who still sometimes cling to "her" because they don't realize there never really WAS a "her"....Just someone pretending to BE "her" because they had to for others....and to keep from being thought crazy (which some people still think I am)....I lost My family over this, other than My kids....My mother has convinced My grandmother, brother and sister, cousins, aunts, etc. that the family is better off not to have a "freak" in it...but, you know what....THIS freak finally feels right....and no one can ever tell Me that transsexual/transgendered people don't have the right to be who they are....I can never, ever explain how good it feels to look into a mirror and finally see ME....but, one year after starting T, I can finally give it My best shot, because, at least now, I KNOW....and, for all it cost Me, it has been worth it....and then some.....Sorry for rambling, but I am very contemplative today....Thanks for reading....Love to All....:hugs: **Trey**

[deja true]

Trey, our dear one!

You lost a family over this...but you've gained a bigger one!

You've got brothers and sisters and grannies and even weird ol' aunties (like me) by the hundreds... (there's even a mom. Right, Holly?)

And you're a wiser and happier soul in the bargain.

Congratuations, nephew!

respect & love,

deja,

:<3:

(Sorry! There's only one slice left, 'cos those cake and cookie freaks in the mod's office got to it first!)

[Sharon]

Congratulations on the anniversary, Trey! :hugs:

By the way, I met you only a few months after you started on the T, and I thought you were already quite the man. :)

[Sheila]

Trey :hugs: & congratulations, I know I rarely pop in here ( go on slap me I deserve it :D), but when I do inevitabely I find you and your words of wisdom, & compassion, I am proud to say I know you my friend :hugs:

[SirTrey]

Sheila, Sharon, Deja...All I can say is thank you all for your sweet words and kind sentiments....It really means a lot to Me.....You are all such beautiful ladies and I am honored that you took the time to wish Me well on My "Manniversary".....:love:

[Kayla Shadows]

Congratulations on the anniversary.Just the point of being able to say that is huge.It was great reading this.I'm happy that your able to feel happy and feel good about yourself.Sometimes these things come with loss but you also gain a lot of things.I give a lot to you for following your heart and doing what you know is best for your life.Being where you are at this stage is wonderful.I pray that this life lets me further myself in the right direction.

[Jenna1561]

Congratulations sir!

[SirTrey]

Kayla, thank you so much for all of the wonderful things you said....You know I think you are a wonderful lady (and so is DD)....and you WILL find your way in all of this...It just takes time to figure it all out and know what exactly it IS that you need to do....:hugs: And Jenna, thank you so much for the congratulations....:hugs: Wow, there are some really wonderful ladies on this board....and I want you to know, I love you all and really do appreciate your kind hearts and good wishes. :rose2:

[Mariah]

YAY TREY!!!!!!!!!!!!! *huggles* :D


Mariah

[Lisa Golightly]

Deep voice... strong neck... broad shoulders... muscular arms... hairy abdomen... stubble... Gosh, I've gone all glassy eyed :daydreaming:

Happy anniversary :)

Lisa x

[DanaR]

Happy anniversary Trey!! Thanks for sharing your story.

[GypsyKaren]

Watching you grow as the man you are has brought me great joy, our visits and talks have always given me great insight, our friendship has always given me strength, and you will always command my respect...enough of the mush stuff, you are one hot looking guy! :hugs:

Karen :g2:

[Tamara Croft]

I remember the first day you started it, the ups and downs in the following weeks and I can't believe it's really been a year already, it really went fast :eek: You're not a freak and you have a huge family, you have all of us :hugs:

[SirTrey]

Mariah, Lisa, Danar....Thank you all so much for making Me feel so good....:)

Today is actually the continuation of the "Manniversary" because I actually started it on Feb. 29, so since there IS no Feb. 29 this year, it falls somewhere between the 28th and March 1...so I dubbed it "Manniversary Weekend"....:thumbsup:

Karen, you KNOW I feel exactly the same way about our friendship....You and Kat are SUCH good friends, and though we don't talk often (why not??), you both have a very special place in My heart....I think of you as My sister and I miss you both a lot. (BTW, a little birdie informed Me that she saw you at the Vagina Monologues) :) Oh, and you are a pretty hot yourself, you know(and so is Kat)....:D

Tamara, you were a big help and support when I first started on the T...and I hope you know that I think you are one great lady. :hugs: