Rachel B
03-10-2009, 06:24 PM
I havent CD'ed for ages, had lost interest being all dressed up with nowhere to go :eek:
But last night I had the urge to get dressed. So I got all girlified, did my make up to the best I could, IMO I looked reasonably okay, maybe even passable, but that might just have been the lighting :heehee:
The clothes I had on were a thigh length black skirt, opaque tights, boots (3in heel but sensible and oh so comfy), black cowl neck jumper (under which I had on forms and bra), wig and black mac with scarf. As I like to describe my style as Rachel - Sassy not ****ty, professional not prostitute!
Out of nowhere I got the urge to go out.......Nothing new for me, I've been out at night before, driving etc, but never dared go anywhere public.......Until last night. I just got this strange feeling to go shopping en-femme.
I know night-shopping is not the same as daytime with loads of people about etc, but if it had been daytime when I got the feeling I would've went then.
So out I went, got in the car and headed to the late night store. Well, the experience was, shall we say interesting.....
I needed fuel so I went to the 24hr station. I was a bit miffed that it was a pay at the pump thing, no real people to gauge reactions. And yes I realised that that was what I was after. How strange is that?
So I went to the store, parked up (had the entire car park to park in so I chose a spot somewhere in the middle, which btw had nothing to do with the fact I just love walking in my boots :heehee:)
So in I strolled. With it being wet last night I almost slipped on my first step........Gawds dammit, managed to steady myself, and composed I walked straight to the womens clothing section. I walked past at least three workers who all sort of gave me the double-take......Okay so I guess the make-up WAS down to the lighting :doh:
You know what, I wasnt freaked at all. It somehow felt, maybe not normal, but not as abnormal as I thought it might be. I used to think that to go out I would need to be passable, now I know that is not part of my agenda. I just need to be comfortable in being who I am.
I do need to work on my look a touch more to blend in better, possible better make-up techniques etc, but in all honesty it wasnt anywhere near as bad as I had it figured.
As they didnt have anything worth buying, apart form a natty little black skirt (not in my size) I decided to head back home. On the way out I noticed the girl I had passed earlier heading in my direction with a colleague and when I passed they made it pretty obvious they were coming for a look. I just smiled at them and headed out the store.
At least I gave them something interesting to talk about.....
Just thought I would share my exploits......
Rach :hugs:
But last night I had the urge to get dressed. So I got all girlified, did my make up to the best I could, IMO I looked reasonably okay, maybe even passable, but that might just have been the lighting :heehee:
The clothes I had on were a thigh length black skirt, opaque tights, boots (3in heel but sensible and oh so comfy), black cowl neck jumper (under which I had on forms and bra), wig and black mac with scarf. As I like to describe my style as Rachel - Sassy not ****ty, professional not prostitute!
Out of nowhere I got the urge to go out.......Nothing new for me, I've been out at night before, driving etc, but never dared go anywhere public.......Until last night. I just got this strange feeling to go shopping en-femme.
I know night-shopping is not the same as daytime with loads of people about etc, but if it had been daytime when I got the feeling I would've went then.
So out I went, got in the car and headed to the late night store. Well, the experience was, shall we say interesting.....
I needed fuel so I went to the 24hr station. I was a bit miffed that it was a pay at the pump thing, no real people to gauge reactions. And yes I realised that that was what I was after. How strange is that?
So I went to the store, parked up (had the entire car park to park in so I chose a spot somewhere in the middle, which btw had nothing to do with the fact I just love walking in my boots :heehee:)
So in I strolled. With it being wet last night I almost slipped on my first step........Gawds dammit, managed to steady myself, and composed I walked straight to the womens clothing section. I walked past at least three workers who all sort of gave me the double-take......Okay so I guess the make-up WAS down to the lighting :doh:
You know what, I wasnt freaked at all. It somehow felt, maybe not normal, but not as abnormal as I thought it might be. I used to think that to go out I would need to be passable, now I know that is not part of my agenda. I just need to be comfortable in being who I am.
I do need to work on my look a touch more to blend in better, possible better make-up techniques etc, but in all honesty it wasnt anywhere near as bad as I had it figured.
As they didnt have anything worth buying, apart form a natty little black skirt (not in my size) I decided to head back home. On the way out I noticed the girl I had passed earlier heading in my direction with a colleague and when I passed they made it pretty obvious they were coming for a look. I just smiled at them and headed out the store.
At least I gave them something interesting to talk about.....
Just thought I would share my exploits......
Rach :hugs: