hellsangel
03-12-2009, 01:47 PM
Hi everybody as you can probably tell im new here but not new to this confusion.
Let me tell you a bit more about myself.
Im in my mid 20s and iv been crossdressing since my mid teens. It all started when my girlfriend left her thong at mine by accident, i came home one night from a friends house and after a few drinks, and saw her thong by my bed, i picked it up and placed it in my bed side draw not thinking twice about it. I had a few more drinks to help me sleep got into bed and was just lying there. Out of knowhere i suddenly had an urge to try it on, just to see what it was like, after a fair while of trying to convince myself it was wrong i gave in and tried it on. Oh my......it was such a wierd sensation but a really pleasent one at that. The next morning i woke up slightly hungover, got up without thinking and went to the bathroom not realising i still had the thong on. As soon as i did i kind of freaked out (of course i didnt remember why i had them on etc) and took them off. For some reason instead of giving them back or leaving them where the GF left them i hid them behind a cupboard in my room.
Days went passed and for some reason i couldnt stop thinking about 'the thong', on a hot summers night i decided to try it on again, this time though i was sober. i locked my door, closed the curtains and took off my boxers and put it on, it took me a fair while to realise what i was doing, but i left them on, put my jeans back on and carried on as normal. Of course i could feel it, and i also felt kinda dirty, but i kept it on, for the rest of the night again. I woke up the next morning and just lay there, still wearing the thong. I got up to get dressed, went to get some boxers, but something was stopping me, i didnt want to take it off.
For the next few months i went through various stages of worry and confusion as to why i was drawn to a girls item of clothing, it got so bad that i had conviced myself what i was doing was wrong and that i should get rid of it and be 'normal', so i did.
Up until my early 20's i never wore any items again, i often thought about it but never did, mainly due to the fact i was 'one of the lads' always out drinking etc. When i was around 23 i moved in to my friends house with his girlfriend and her best mate. All was well and good. Over the christmas period everybody would go home as would i, however the house mates would be gone over the 2 week holiday where as i would be only gone over Xmas day and boxin day. I came back after boxing day, put my stuff away and sat down stairs in the lounge watching tv, i was bored nothing on tv so i thought i do some hoovering, got the hoover and started giving the house a go over, i went to do the hall way and accidently knocked my friends gf's mini skirt off the radiator, i picked it up and paused. It was the 'thong' moment all over again. i put it back on the rad and went and sat down again, for the life of me i couldnt get the skirt out of my head. Im not proud but i cracked and ended up putting it on, but not only that she had a jumper and bra also on the rad, so i put them on too. It felt soooo right and id never felt happier, the only thing missing was a thong. I noticed a laundry basket in the garage and ended up nosing through that, and guess what...i found a thong, i put it on and stayed dressed like that. For the whole xmas break id come home from work and put her clothes on, obviously i washed them to but id never felt so happy and comfortable.
For the rest of the time i was living there, if i was alone id always dress up, unfortunaly though it wasnt for much longer as they moved to france and i was homeless again, i managed to rent a house with a friend and his girlfriend but this caused me to stop cd'n due to them always being in the house. I didnt wear anyhing for almost 2 years but never stopped thinking about it.
Now though i have my own place and my own clothes. Now here is where i need advice.
Last month i ended up buying my own clothes for the first time, nothing major just a few pairs of breifs and bras, jeans and a skinny hoodie. I come home everyday and put them on, and i feel great. Thing is i think i want to push my 'look' further.
Im quite hairy and iv never thought about shaving my legs, arms etc mainly because i have a lot of close friends that would think this is 'weird' and also more importantly my family who would be dead against this. Im growing my hair and trying to lose weight so i can have a smooth tummy etc. I love mini skirts and short tight tops but it just feels wrong with me being hairy so im kinda put off this. Iv also been looking at buying some breast forms but again with my hairy chest this wont look right.
have you any advice for me?
sorry if my story was quite long awell
Thanks
Let me tell you a bit more about myself.
Im in my mid 20s and iv been crossdressing since my mid teens. It all started when my girlfriend left her thong at mine by accident, i came home one night from a friends house and after a few drinks, and saw her thong by my bed, i picked it up and placed it in my bed side draw not thinking twice about it. I had a few more drinks to help me sleep got into bed and was just lying there. Out of knowhere i suddenly had an urge to try it on, just to see what it was like, after a fair while of trying to convince myself it was wrong i gave in and tried it on. Oh my......it was such a wierd sensation but a really pleasent one at that. The next morning i woke up slightly hungover, got up without thinking and went to the bathroom not realising i still had the thong on. As soon as i did i kind of freaked out (of course i didnt remember why i had them on etc) and took them off. For some reason instead of giving them back or leaving them where the GF left them i hid them behind a cupboard in my room.
Days went passed and for some reason i couldnt stop thinking about 'the thong', on a hot summers night i decided to try it on again, this time though i was sober. i locked my door, closed the curtains and took off my boxers and put it on, it took me a fair while to realise what i was doing, but i left them on, put my jeans back on and carried on as normal. Of course i could feel it, and i also felt kinda dirty, but i kept it on, for the rest of the night again. I woke up the next morning and just lay there, still wearing the thong. I got up to get dressed, went to get some boxers, but something was stopping me, i didnt want to take it off.
For the next few months i went through various stages of worry and confusion as to why i was drawn to a girls item of clothing, it got so bad that i had conviced myself what i was doing was wrong and that i should get rid of it and be 'normal', so i did.
Up until my early 20's i never wore any items again, i often thought about it but never did, mainly due to the fact i was 'one of the lads' always out drinking etc. When i was around 23 i moved in to my friends house with his girlfriend and her best mate. All was well and good. Over the christmas period everybody would go home as would i, however the house mates would be gone over the 2 week holiday where as i would be only gone over Xmas day and boxin day. I came back after boxing day, put my stuff away and sat down stairs in the lounge watching tv, i was bored nothing on tv so i thought i do some hoovering, got the hoover and started giving the house a go over, i went to do the hall way and accidently knocked my friends gf's mini skirt off the radiator, i picked it up and paused. It was the 'thong' moment all over again. i put it back on the rad and went and sat down again, for the life of me i couldnt get the skirt out of my head. Im not proud but i cracked and ended up putting it on, but not only that she had a jumper and bra also on the rad, so i put them on too. It felt soooo right and id never felt happier, the only thing missing was a thong. I noticed a laundry basket in the garage and ended up nosing through that, and guess what...i found a thong, i put it on and stayed dressed like that. For the whole xmas break id come home from work and put her clothes on, obviously i washed them to but id never felt so happy and comfortable.
For the rest of the time i was living there, if i was alone id always dress up, unfortunaly though it wasnt for much longer as they moved to france and i was homeless again, i managed to rent a house with a friend and his girlfriend but this caused me to stop cd'n due to them always being in the house. I didnt wear anyhing for almost 2 years but never stopped thinking about it.
Now though i have my own place and my own clothes. Now here is where i need advice.
Last month i ended up buying my own clothes for the first time, nothing major just a few pairs of breifs and bras, jeans and a skinny hoodie. I come home everyday and put them on, and i feel great. Thing is i think i want to push my 'look' further.
Im quite hairy and iv never thought about shaving my legs, arms etc mainly because i have a lot of close friends that would think this is 'weird' and also more importantly my family who would be dead against this. Im growing my hair and trying to lose weight so i can have a smooth tummy etc. I love mini skirts and short tight tops but it just feels wrong with me being hairy so im kinda put off this. Iv also been looking at buying some breast forms but again with my hairy chest this wont look right.
have you any advice for me?
sorry if my story was quite long awell
Thanks