cd_britney_426
04-01-2009, 01:45 AM
Wow, it has been almost a year since I first dressed for the first time. I never thought I would have taken it as far as I have in just a year's time. I have kept track of the number of times I have gone out in public dressed and this has been a total of 57 times! :)
What is interesting is how the more I do this, the more I feel that I am simply expressing my true self instead of just doing this for fun which tells me that I could eventually transition. I am out to my Mom as well as several people at work (and potentially the whole workplace depending on how fast gossip gets around). Neither work has seen me dressed on-site nor has my Mom but several people at work have seen me dressed at nightclubs and my Mom will be attending the gay Pride and will see me dressed for the first time. Most of these outings have been at a nightclub that specifically caters to TG people but is a rather serious dive bar and so I've ventured out further. I have now gone out to a regular "gay bar" where I am often the only T-girl present but have had major acceptance from a number of GGs there. I have now been confident enough to buy makeup myself with the help of the sales lady and shop for clothes myself again without needing to drag someone along.
Also, interesting is I've made a habit of getting fast food after the nightclub and have received some interesting compliments by not only GGs working there but also a man as well. Granted this is just in the drive through but I have gone there in drab as well and one of the GGs said she loves to see me dressed and likes the "girl" me much more than the "boy" self. I have also been getting mostly "ma'am" at these neutral environments and often when I am called "sir" it will be followed by an apology and then a "ma'am."
What is also interesting is how when I first started going out as Britney, it was a big deal. I looked forward to it, set a lot of time aside to get ready, and was a bit nervous (and really nervous at the very beginning). Now, it is as routine as brushing my teeth. Going out as a female is coming natural enough to me that in a way this is how I truly see myself as it is much more than just looks or clothes but my true gender. Maybe I'm not 100% sure on this yet but time will tell.
Most importantly, I have greatly appreciated all of the support I have received from so many right here on this discussion board. I never would have thought so many people would take so much time giving their advice and best wishes especially when I encountered some tough times.
So what's next? Well, gay pride will be the first time I go out in daytime. At night, I have the luxury of not being seen by as many people and not fully seen as much by the few who do notice. During the day, there is no hiding anywhere. That is my next goal is to get used to being Britney in daylight hours and easing more and more into regular environments such as stores, restaurants, etc. Other than that, I am also interested in electrolysis although money is tight right now. Oh, and I've been growing my natural hair out so eventually I'm going to go without a wig! :) Anyway, sorry for ranting but I thought I would share since I haven't posted any progress for some time. Take care everyone. Britney
What is interesting is how the more I do this, the more I feel that I am simply expressing my true self instead of just doing this for fun which tells me that I could eventually transition. I am out to my Mom as well as several people at work (and potentially the whole workplace depending on how fast gossip gets around). Neither work has seen me dressed on-site nor has my Mom but several people at work have seen me dressed at nightclubs and my Mom will be attending the gay Pride and will see me dressed for the first time. Most of these outings have been at a nightclub that specifically caters to TG people but is a rather serious dive bar and so I've ventured out further. I have now gone out to a regular "gay bar" where I am often the only T-girl present but have had major acceptance from a number of GGs there. I have now been confident enough to buy makeup myself with the help of the sales lady and shop for clothes myself again without needing to drag someone along.
Also, interesting is I've made a habit of getting fast food after the nightclub and have received some interesting compliments by not only GGs working there but also a man as well. Granted this is just in the drive through but I have gone there in drab as well and one of the GGs said she loves to see me dressed and likes the "girl" me much more than the "boy" self. I have also been getting mostly "ma'am" at these neutral environments and often when I am called "sir" it will be followed by an apology and then a "ma'am."
What is also interesting is how when I first started going out as Britney, it was a big deal. I looked forward to it, set a lot of time aside to get ready, and was a bit nervous (and really nervous at the very beginning). Now, it is as routine as brushing my teeth. Going out as a female is coming natural enough to me that in a way this is how I truly see myself as it is much more than just looks or clothes but my true gender. Maybe I'm not 100% sure on this yet but time will tell.
Most importantly, I have greatly appreciated all of the support I have received from so many right here on this discussion board. I never would have thought so many people would take so much time giving their advice and best wishes especially when I encountered some tough times.
So what's next? Well, gay pride will be the first time I go out in daytime. At night, I have the luxury of not being seen by as many people and not fully seen as much by the few who do notice. During the day, there is no hiding anywhere. That is my next goal is to get used to being Britney in daylight hours and easing more and more into regular environments such as stores, restaurants, etc. Other than that, I am also interested in electrolysis although money is tight right now. Oh, and I've been growing my natural hair out so eventually I'm going to go without a wig! :) Anyway, sorry for ranting but I thought I would share since I haven't posted any progress for some time. Take care everyone. Britney