Melissa A.
05-10-2009, 04:44 PM
Hi everybody!
I've experienced a few milestones and changes of late, and there are more coming up, so I thought I would share them. I guess the most exciting and tangible, for me, is that I have finally shed my wig and breastforms for good! Yay! I can hardly put into words how much this means to me. I'm 49, and had, before I started HRT, signifigant thinning in my hair, especially in front. Hair is a crapshoot for everyone, and I was pretty much resigned that I would be a wig-wearer until someday when I could afford expensive hair transplants. I started using minoxidil months before I started hormones, and I take a combination of Spiro and finasteride, on top of the estrogen. After 7 months on HRT, I had not cut my hair in 15 months, and the results were surprisingly good, as far as the thinning is concerned. It has really filled in very, very nicely, and I assume it is not done. I realise I've been very lucky, there. Of course, having not touched my hair in that long, It was far from attractive. it was very wavy, poofy, and filled with split ends and other unhealthy things. Ok for a guy with long hair, but as a woman? Not this birds nest! I was lucky enough to find a hairstylist who I can only describe as a genius. After she was thru styling and straightening my hair, I sat there in the chair staring at myself, and quite unsuccessfully tried not to weep. I go back for extensions this week, to try to thicken and fill in where it's still a bit thin. I feel so free! When you have to wear a wig every day, you really learn to hate them.
My breasts have gotten to where I can comfortabley wear an A-cup and fill it in, mostly. And I'm much happier being me, rather than walking around with falsies on. yeah, I'm much smaller, now, but screw it. Lotsa women have little boobies. Again, I feel so much more like...me. Some of you may remember my old profile piccie here. I always liked that pic, and felt it was one of my best, which is why it's been here a long time. It's now been replaced by the new me, if anyone cares to take a peek. And look, I realise I may not be quite as pretty now, or blend in as well, but I very honestly don't care anymore. You really do get to a point where none of that matters. I've even pared the makeup down quite a bit. It's time. And this is the real me. It's not the hugest milestone, but for me, it's very exciting. The fake breasts and hair were a false crutch for me, something I felt I needed to be out in the world. And yeah, I admit the first couple of times I was out without them, I was a bit self-conscious. But to tell you the truth, I have been changing, not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. I have been telling anyone who would listen for 2 years that I am doing this to be who I really am, then I would turn around and camoflauge myself with the very things that not only changed my appearance, but also are qualities that, I feel, are least important in a woman. There is so much more that defines me as female. Sure, I want to be attractive, who doesn't? And I do give myself a break for just wanting to fit in and be somewhat accepted. But at the same time, I'm sooooo happy those crutches aren't a part of me anymore.
I'm also moving at the end of this month, to NYC.(about 200 miles south) Outside of work, I'll be full time, and work will come, I'm hoping, by around the end of this year. I'll be new where I'm going(staying with the same company, just different location), and I think I need to give it time so that people get to know me and my good qualities before they judge me simply as a transsexual. Some of you may remember that I work for a large freight railroad. This is going to be the biggest challenge of my transition, and still gives me a little anxiety, although far, far less than in the past. It's not going to be real easy, but I'm commited to it, and heck, I can't aford to quit my job! I found two very nice female roomates who are just fine with me. So the next few months should be very exciting- New look, new city, Hopefully new friends, and the home stretch, transition-wise. It's all coming together and is in my sights now. As I said earlier, Yay!
Hugs,
Melissa :)
I've experienced a few milestones and changes of late, and there are more coming up, so I thought I would share them. I guess the most exciting and tangible, for me, is that I have finally shed my wig and breastforms for good! Yay! I can hardly put into words how much this means to me. I'm 49, and had, before I started HRT, signifigant thinning in my hair, especially in front. Hair is a crapshoot for everyone, and I was pretty much resigned that I would be a wig-wearer until someday when I could afford expensive hair transplants. I started using minoxidil months before I started hormones, and I take a combination of Spiro and finasteride, on top of the estrogen. After 7 months on HRT, I had not cut my hair in 15 months, and the results were surprisingly good, as far as the thinning is concerned. It has really filled in very, very nicely, and I assume it is not done. I realise I've been very lucky, there. Of course, having not touched my hair in that long, It was far from attractive. it was very wavy, poofy, and filled with split ends and other unhealthy things. Ok for a guy with long hair, but as a woman? Not this birds nest! I was lucky enough to find a hairstylist who I can only describe as a genius. After she was thru styling and straightening my hair, I sat there in the chair staring at myself, and quite unsuccessfully tried not to weep. I go back for extensions this week, to try to thicken and fill in where it's still a bit thin. I feel so free! When you have to wear a wig every day, you really learn to hate them.
My breasts have gotten to where I can comfortabley wear an A-cup and fill it in, mostly. And I'm much happier being me, rather than walking around with falsies on. yeah, I'm much smaller, now, but screw it. Lotsa women have little boobies. Again, I feel so much more like...me. Some of you may remember my old profile piccie here. I always liked that pic, and felt it was one of my best, which is why it's been here a long time. It's now been replaced by the new me, if anyone cares to take a peek. And look, I realise I may not be quite as pretty now, or blend in as well, but I very honestly don't care anymore. You really do get to a point where none of that matters. I've even pared the makeup down quite a bit. It's time. And this is the real me. It's not the hugest milestone, but for me, it's very exciting. The fake breasts and hair were a false crutch for me, something I felt I needed to be out in the world. And yeah, I admit the first couple of times I was out without them, I was a bit self-conscious. But to tell you the truth, I have been changing, not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. I have been telling anyone who would listen for 2 years that I am doing this to be who I really am, then I would turn around and camoflauge myself with the very things that not only changed my appearance, but also are qualities that, I feel, are least important in a woman. There is so much more that defines me as female. Sure, I want to be attractive, who doesn't? And I do give myself a break for just wanting to fit in and be somewhat accepted. But at the same time, I'm sooooo happy those crutches aren't a part of me anymore.
I'm also moving at the end of this month, to NYC.(about 200 miles south) Outside of work, I'll be full time, and work will come, I'm hoping, by around the end of this year. I'll be new where I'm going(staying with the same company, just different location), and I think I need to give it time so that people get to know me and my good qualities before they judge me simply as a transsexual. Some of you may remember that I work for a large freight railroad. This is going to be the biggest challenge of my transition, and still gives me a little anxiety, although far, far less than in the past. It's not going to be real easy, but I'm commited to it, and heck, I can't aford to quit my job! I found two very nice female roomates who are just fine with me. So the next few months should be very exciting- New look, new city, Hopefully new friends, and the home stretch, transition-wise. It's all coming together and is in my sights now. As I said earlier, Yay!
Hugs,
Melissa :)