I think I am growing up

[DaphneGrey]

I have been thinking a lot lately about why I have become so jadded. I can't seem to be happy about much any more (as daphne I mean). I have listened, Read, Talked etc. I think one of the reasons is that Daphne is growing up.

The Crossdressing world is just not enough for me any more. As Daphne has become an seperate and independent part of my personality I need more interaction with the real world.

I guess you could say is that "she is no longer a hobby but has become her own person" So many things that I used to say and do it seems I have outgrown and leave me empty. For instance shopping is no longer an adventure but a chore, trips to the salon are an expense, I wear cotton panties, superficial girl talk drives me insane.

And yet I know Daphne is not going anywhere so perhaps I am afraid of her and where she is going if that makes any sense. Perhaps this is contributing to my somewhat depressive state as of late.

I don't know perhaps it is just growing pains. Does anyone have similar thoughts or feelings?

Or am just missing my female adolessence?

Thanks for taking the time to read this any thoughts good or bad are really apreciated.
Love Daphne

[Christina Horton]

think of it this way you just went through Crossdressing puberty. Or how ever you spell it.

For girl turning into women it's all "exciting and new" ( come aboard, were expecting you ,and love...). Sorry could not resist it.

So after she Is through it and some time passes she gets use to and then it's all biss as always.

My :2c: worth.

[DianneRoberts]

This is certainly not just a passing "thing" with me.
I am finding that I NEED to expand. I NEED to be free of the closet.

I love being who I am and leaving the old 10% behind, but.................

If I think about it at all I just start feeling lonely and start crying, that's not like ol' 10% at all.

Some nights I cannot sleep, sometimes like this morning I am on top of the world.

I just need to win the lottery and go en femme for a month someplace like Las Vegas or Orange county. The NE is so "cold".

mixed up world eh ?

[Nicole Erin]

In before -
"You are not a real TS..."
Cause we all know someone will make those comments... AND we know who.

[Miranda-E]

I have been thinking a lot lately about why I have become so jadded. I can't seem to be happy about much any more (as daphne I mean). I have listened, Read, Talked etc. I think one of the reasons is that Daphne is growing up.

The Crossdressing world is just not enough for me any more. As Daphne has become an seperate and independent part of my personality I need more interaction with the real world.

I guess you could say is that "she is no longer a hobby but has become her own person" So many things that I used to say and do it seems I have outgrown and leave me empty. For instance shopping is no longer an adventure but a chore, trips to the salon are an expense, I wear cotton panties, superficial girl talk drives me insane.

And yet I know Daphne is not going anywhere so perhaps I am afraid of her and where she is going if that makes any sense. Perhaps this is contributing to my somewhat depressive state as of late.

I don't know perhaps it is just growing pains. Does anyone have similar thoughts or feelings?

Or am just missing my female adolessence?

Thanks for taking the time to read this any thoughts good or bad are really apreciated.
Love Daphne

The ebbing depresive state is probably your growing. I never had a "separate" persona though, just aspect of me that I hid.
The adventures just became natural life after a while and the depression went away for me.

Yeah, the salon is just an uneeded expense :yawn:.

[Joni Marie Cruz]

Hey Daphne-

Yeah, I think in a way it is about maturing in who we are as our female selves. It moves away from that part of it that was simply all fun and the excitement of new won freedom and being our other selves (and also, to one degree or another, somewhat hyper-sexual and almost fetishistic) to acting like a grownup woman. Still, speaking for myself, I hope I don't ever lose all of the enjoyment I get from going shopping and so on, though I am more judicious and less carefree in my spending.

And like we all do, when we talk with friends, whether they are old ones or new ones, sometimes the talk is froth and foam and sometimes it's serious and from the heart. Just depends on time, needs and circumstances.

One thing I'm absolutely sure of, speaking for myself, is I can't go back to being who I used to be. I am a little bit nuts, but not crazy enough to think that I am really two different people or that there's a seperate and completely distinct person who also inhabits my body (but wears different clothes) and whom I "let out" on occasion. However, with that said, Joni in many ways has her own personality and to lose her would be a form of suicide. Though perhaps not so final.

Jeeze. I hope some of this made sense.

Hugs...Joni Mari

[Joanne f]

Never never never am i going to grow up :tongueout:lol2: