How early did you know?

[DizzyRose]

Sorry for posting so many topics, just have quite a few questions as I have never really spoken to other people like myself before. I was wondering how early everyone knew they weren't "right". I think for me, it goes back as far as I remember. I was always very feminine looking/sounding/acting, even as a child I was assumed to be a girl constantly. I remember always referring to myself as "she" in my mind, and mentally correcting people in the rare event that they actually referred to me as a boy. In school, I actually had one teacher who was calling me a girl for about a MONTH before he finally looked at the list more closely on his computer xD As another quirk, I seem to have at least a degree of natural breasts.. I used to be heavier than I am now, but I can actually fill a B-cup (and have never taken hormones..) So I was just wondering if anyone has had similar experiences. Or did you ever feel differently?

[Empress Lainie]

Read my journal in the journals, Dizzy Rose, you will see similarities.

[Diane24]

I always knew! I can remember when I was 4 years old, praying at bedtime that God would turn me into a girl. I really hated being a boy. I was very jealous of my girl cousins, Nancy and Irene. I loved the pretty dresses they wore to Sunday School and hated the suits I had to wear. I got into a lot of trouble at school because I stared at the girls so much. The teachers thought I was trying to look up their skirts or dresses, but I really was dreaming about wearing them!
It took until my 24th birthday to finally take the first steps to become Diane. The "24" in my username is not only to find an unused email name but also to signify when I started my transition.
I believe that nearly all of us always knew that we were not boys at an early age. The joy of it is that we have embarked on a journey to correct that mistake.

Diane.

[Dana Lane]

As far back as I remember I didn't feel comfortable in my male role. However at those times I never thought I was supposed to be a girl, either. From about 16 years old I remember being attracted to androgynous males. To me it was so sexy. The same goes with voices (singers) where a male would sing sounding more feminine than masculine.

I grew up on the bible belt where feminine attributes were an absolute abomination on a male. So I'm sure I suppressed a lot of feelings my entire life. Until recently that is!

One thing I do wish is that I was born a girl. Nothing I can do about that, though!

[Carole Cross]

I have known that I was different since about the age of five. I originally wanted to transition when I was twelve and had planeed to see my doctor when I turned sixteen. The reason I did not do this was because I was caught dressed before I made the appointment and was scared out of it, I had very little confidence back then. I then decided to live as a guy and to forget about my dream. The only problem was, as we all know, yuo can never forget, so, after many years of frustration, I have decided to pursue my dream. :D

[nancyish]

My sisters always called me one of them ,included me in everything,and, i always sided with them in the many disputes with (not so nice)Dad.I was always sensitive and very soft spoken(mistaken as girl).When i was 40ish i put a pair of my wife's panties and fell head over heels in love.I'm so bad i always want to look at ladies bums to see panty lines(I try not to be too obvious).Love Nancy

[Lisa Golightly]

All my conscious life it has dominated every waking thought and I fought against it with everything I had until a few years back when I decided my body couldn't put up with any more abuse. Self-harm, alcohol abuse... I had by no means a perfect 'girlhood' and although mistaken for a girl occassionally that just made me both furious and disgusted.

My last real act of self harm saw me stab myself in the leg... while very drunk... and maudlin. Kind of woke me up to the fact that I couldn't win this war of attrition. So I surrendered to it.

My experience was one of self-loathing and even now if I could survive as a boy I would... but I can't.

[Kaitlyn Michele]

Pretty much the same....the difference for me is that i was a masculine boy and I pretty much "accepted" that I was stuck as a guy and this became very ingrained in me over time..my earliest memory is about 6 or 7

i very much relate to the thought of praying and wishing I was a girl and I thought of it and fantasized about being turned into a girl or "willing myself" into it...i would put it best by saying since i was little i felt that i was cheated and wondered why i wasnt a girl....i repressed the thought, suffered all kinds of anxiety, addictions, etc...and finally realized what i wanted and needed in my 40's

i enjoy reading everyone's story because we all handled the same thing so differently. For years, I felt my narrative was different than a trans woman, therefore of course i knew i was not...this was comforting because i was so afraid of being "caught" and i never told a soul, even my therapists...

but now I know every trans woman is different and my final defense was gone and i realized who i was and what i had to do.

[LisaM]

My earliest memories are of wanting to be a girl---they have dominated my life as long as I can remember.

[Veronica_Jean]

Rose,

My earliest memory of knowing that I should have been a girl was about age 9. I, like Diane, used to pray to God to change me in my sleep. Of course that never happened.

I was born in 1955, so I had no real idea what all this was or meant. I struggled for decades before I began to know that I simply was a woman and I have tried to get to that point since.

I just started transitioning in March, so it certainly took me a long time to even begin.

Veronica

[nancyish]

[QUOTE=Lisa Golightly;Dear Lisa Ihope you are doing OK.You look stunning in your pic(bye the way)I also am
very effeminate by nature.It caused me much grief for many years.Only recently(in my 50's) am i cool with being femme.I love my whole person now and it is great! Please take care and love your true self,I bet you are an awesome person.Gotta love Nancy

[SirTrey]

I don't remember a whole lot from My early childhood, but I do remember feeling very "awkward" and "like something just wasn't right"....I never felt comfortable in My body, ever....and the bad thing about that was that I was considered attractive, which I really didn't want to be...I very vividly remember being at My 7th grade dance and feeling completely uncomfortable with the entire social situation and just knowing that I was supposed to be a boy dating girls....and feeling very, very sad about it. I remember a lot of situations where the boys and girls were split up and I just wanted to go and hang out with the boys...The "girl things" were not what I was interested in and, in fact, I just didn't understand a lot of it at all....It didn't "compute"....I have always been very "male brained" and still, to this day, do NOT understand women....and, supposedly, I WAS one....Go figure. :Angry3:

[Lisa Golightly]

Dear Lisa Ihope you are doing OK.You look stunning in your pic(bye the way)I also am very effeminate by nature.It caused me much grief for many years.Only recently(in my 50's) am i cool with being femme.I love my whole person now and it is great! Please take care and love your true self,I bet you are an awesome person.

Awwwwwwww... Thank you Nancy *hug* :) x

I'm doing ok these days... Actually the last two years since I've been on hormones have been the most stable ones I've ever experienced and that seems to be reflected in the affection others show toward me.

Lisa x

[Sammy777]

When did I first know?
I really could not tell you, but I was young.

When did I finally realize and accept it?
The beginning of this year or maybe back when I joined here last Oct.

[tiffany_marie]

i also have known since i can remember. two specific times. one i remeber i was so young and my grandma bought me a speedo lol and id wear that speedo everyday. under my clothes and everything. no matter what i refused to wear my little boy underwear so they took my mom and my grandma took me shopping so i could get something id wear besides that speedo and i said oooohhhh i like these ones and she said no honey you cant have those those r for girls and i said so what? then i want girl undies. then in sixth grade there was this thing at school where the girls dressed as boys and boys went as girls and i went all out. when i got there the boys were just boys with dresses on. but i had my hair done nails done make up the works and thats when i realized that ive never felt so natural and so beautiful in my life and i have been doing it ever since.

[nancyish]

What an awesome story Tiffany,Ilove it.Nancy

[morgan pure]

Oh what beautiful stories everybody. I used to pray all the time to be a girl. Oh, God, it brings back memories. And I used to dream of my prince.

Well 4 or 5 summers ago I'm very depressed and sometimes almost suicidal. I don't have a boat in the water and can't afford a place at the beach and no work. No one appreciates my work. My ex and I are not talking. So I find a prayer in a book by Petronius. I burn incense and say the prayer everyday for a month.The prayer was to deliver one from a hateful embodiment or to kill him. Although it propitiated all the major Roman goddesses, I think that Artemis effected my change. My actions are not my own.

[Aubrey Green]

As soon as puberty hit. 12 or 13 turned from an eye opener to a conscious eye opener, that male wasn't the driving force in my life. It might not have even been 50% of the driving force. Aubrey made herself known very quickly and her intentions drove me for many years. That was 39 or 40 years ago and she lives on, sometimes unbearably insistant on having her life on a 24/7 basis. :daydreaming:

[Miranda-E]

Sorry for posting so many topics, just have quite a few questions as I have never really spoken to other people like myself before. I was wondering how early everyone knew they weren't "right".

4-5 years old.

[Karen564]

Short version..

I had an small idea something was not right with me when I entered kindergarten, which was at age 4, because that was the 1st time I was exposed to other kids around my age for the 1st time, (yes, I was a sheltered child) but many were already 5 by then, and discovered I didn't really like playing with the other boys very much, they seemed so different from me, but I didn't play with the girls much either, although they fascinated me and I wanted to play with them, but the boys would correct me right away and told me they had cooties and stay away from them, so I had to keep to myself..so I went on not really knowing what was wrong with me.. just knew I was different..

But I definitely knew for sure that something was very wrong with me by the time I was 5 or 6..only because I had more of an idea of what I liked & didn't like, and all I wanted, was to be friends with & play with the girls, not the boys, and had thoughts of wishing I could wear pretty dresses in the nice colors too, instead of having to wear my ugly boy clothes.. but dont get me wrong, I did not act or present myself as a girl in any way, I knew better not to do that, because both the girls & the boys would of ridiculed me immediately, so I had to keep my thoughts to myself.. but I did get comfort from drawing & the arts, and by 1st grade I was well known as the class artist and held that title right up until high school..

So for years I'd thought I was the only person on the planet that felt this way, and so alone, and kept it to myself only out of shear terror of what they would do to me if I told them how I felt inside, just thought they would send me away to a mental hospital because of my crazy thoughts thinking I was a girl and then never see my family again..:sad:

The only one that knew all that time would be GOD, because I prayed to him every single night for years..( I had also cried myself to sleep for the longest time during these years too) At 1st, I prayed for him to turn me a girl by the time I woke up the next morning...,nope, didn't happen :sad:, and then I had promised him in my prayers I wouldn't tell anyone what he did if he did turn me into a girl..but that didn't work..:sad:
Then later, I prayed that he would just make me all boy then, so I didn't have to feel like a girl inside, but that didn't work either...

So after many years of that, I just stopped praying at night and going to church every Sunday, and felt very let down and didn't understand why God was punishing me by making me this way..:sad:

I'm 48 years old, so I've been living with this GID depression for at least 42 years now..:) but the HRT has helped some for the last 4..:)

[John]

Swore blind I was going to grow up and be a boy when I was 4.

Even now, I foster a slight feeling of 'I told you so!' :heehee:


SIn school, I actually had one teacher who was calling me a girl for about a MONTH before he finally looked at the list more closely on his computer xD

When I moved up to middle school, I had a teach ask for a girl volentear (for something cool, so I put my hand up) and then tell me verry condocendingly 'no, I said a girl'; and then wonder why everyone laughed at her.

[nancyish]

[QUOTE=Karen564;1776322]Short version..
Dear karen what a sad story,not unlike most of ours.There is a religous discussion group in this site that you may find helpful.God aleady made you.If you are not happy the way you are then you will have to work out your own life.This seems to be what most of us are doing.Please don't let small minded people try to dictate who you are.God was not surprised to find out i'm effeminate!Gotta Love Nancy

[VirginiaX23]

I knew very early on but never had anyone make any mistakes about my sexuality. Two older brothers do a very good job of beating the boy into you and I rarely had those "alone" moments to be a girl uninterrupted until my mother and father split when I was about 9 and she took me to the other coast without my brothers.

The more I examine my youth, the more I find that the time I spent alone was time I spent as Virginia.

[Staciej]

About 5ish was jelous of girls. Wanted to wear pretty stuff and be more like barbie then ken. Wasn't aloud too do any girl things Semed it wasn't fair. As my family doesn't accept gay issues as they called it. Three cousins diss owned from family growing up with a cd brother. Who passed 3 years ago by cancer never had his thoughts was he realy wanting to be a female like me or just like the dressing. Never got out of the closset. Using a sickness to hide behind my fealings. Don't want to but after loss of father feb 2nd. I seen no ther way out a little. Still living a lie though only my wife knows and accepts me 100%. I think of my SRS every day and how it can't come fast enough. Confussed am I gay? Am I straight? or just a lesbian trapt in a mans body. I love my wife more then life it self.
Everyday I thank is she realy ok with Stace (as she does call me)? Or affraid of losing me and doesn't want her at all. Going thru a journey or down a roade she never wanted. Will I lose her after SrS? Lot of these things go thru my head everyday.

Lost one of my heroes and also the biggest one Michel Jackson. That even him a ounce huge star never got treated fair. After doing so much for us some rather slam him for stuff he wouldnt dream of doing in my eyes and real fans that knew him. Say he wanted to be a white girl, plastic surgury, and rasing childen alone and with a mask on. These are all expained easy if they stop and thank and see him who he was. white he had a sickness starteed with V. (sorry not trying to spell it lol) A girl ok if he wanted to be a girl has plenty of money to do it why hide? Surgury lots of celebriys and non get it everyday Gene simmons of kiss. And kenny rogers comes to mind. Why do they not get bad press? The mask is just smart he couldnt be with his kids all the time. Bad people can't see them they can't try to take them or hurt them. The other stuff is just plain dumb and not touching it as I never belived it anyway lol. Thank if he couldnt lived in peace how can you or I? these or things I thank About and why I dont feal right as a guy...

Tgirl Staciej

[GaelicGurl]

Like most of us - I knew I was special when I was about 6 but it took until I was in my thirties to accepts it fully and make "the move"

[Danielle Gee]

[QUOTE=morgan pure;1776036]Oh what beautiful stories everybody. I used to pray all the time to be a girl. Oh, God, it brings back memories. And I used to dream of my prince.
/QUOTE]

I think this is why I'm agnostic.....I prayed for the same thing. My wife beleives in Karma and she says I'll probably come back as a woman.....Then I'll know what it's like ( she says its nothing like my fantisy)

[Jaclyn NM]

I never thought that I wasn't "right", in fact I've always thought of myself as totally "normal". As far as when I realized that I liked female clothing more than male clothing, I think I was probably six or seven. I loved watching my mom dress and put on her makeup, and once I tried it myself, I was hooked, and have been ever since. All aspects of the rest of my life have been totally "normal", so that's what I think I am. Considering the number of posts on this forum, there seem to be an awful lot of us, and in my mind, that makes us "normal"

[nancyish]

Dear Stacie.It seems you have a lot more going 4 you than against.Your wife accepts you 100% ,who else matters.Even if she accpts you but doesn't encourage you ,your still way ahead of the norm.Be who you are and everyone can do as they wish.Best of luck to you.Gotta Love Nancy.

[Kimberly Marie Kelly]

it took me years of anxiety & shame crossdressing and thinking I was gay, to come to the realization that I'm actually a transsexual and there is nothing wrong with me. :battingeyelashes:

[jamie_44]

I knew I was different at a very young age and pretended to be a girl behind closed doors. I struggled with it most of my life. I had a lot of trouble trying to understand it. I tried to be normal but just could not stop it. I now know that I am not a mistake.

[MJ]

i knew i was different from a young age about 5 or 6 and years of trying to deal with anxiety & shame cross-dressing and thinking I was gay like Kimberly.
embracing my feminine side to denial and bound and determined not to transition. I'm a guy dammit but nothing worked to finally accepting the truth i am a woman god sure has a sense of humor

[BreenaDion]

12 yrs old. I couldnt know earlier because or curtain mental an emotional blockers . Wish I did Know real early, cause I would of love to play with dolls :daydreaming:

[Staciej]

Thank you nancyish I understand how I have great things going for me. As I talk to my mother I feal im getting further up a ladder. Soon as I reach the top of telling her I get knocked back down it. One minute she understands next she has no clue why we want to be a female. So hard to explain something when a person want's to liston. Then next say I don;t care about those gayos. Just so hard I say thats at bad thing to say. she says it again I can't take it and say I have to go or im getting tierd. Im having a hard time dealing with it all. Ill try to stay positive bite my lip. Just the pain hurts of it all.:cute::cry: Thank you Tgirl Staciej

[Byanca]

My earliest memory is from stealing a pantyhose from my moder. And really most all memories is from dressing up.

I need some contact with other people when I am dressed more pretty. So used to go to my grandmother. With a skirt or a dress or whatever. She thought me a lot of what she like, like knitting, brodery and so on. She never said anything bad to me, sometimes nice things about. But usually just about all other stuff.

I also had a sexual encounter with a male same age of mine, neighbor. When I was about 8-9. Dont really remember, but I was the girly. We where caught, so not much more sexual intercourse, even when I grew up. Since they told us that this was not how it worked. So that kind of stuck.

But in behavior I am kind of neutral, growing up in a farm. It is just that my emotional register have always felt female.And from I was 20 to 30 it has grown stronger 10 fold. And I suspect this will only continue.

I always had this idea that if I find a very feminine woman, this could fill the vacuum inside. But woman I met later was when we got to know each other even more masculine. And they wanted masculinity. And I could not give that. I think I was just seeking comfort, a safe zone.

I dont know, I'm still searching for easy fixes to find balance. But the more I read, the more difficult this seems to be. And in the meantime time stands still, and my life is slowly dripping away through the time glass.

Right now it is like existence in non existence. I might even have fallen into a depression without realizing it. Severe out of body experience. Just mental energy with no essence.

This in it self is I think depressing, it is not a good path to find joy and happiness.

[nancyish]

Thank you nancyish I understand how I have great things going for me.
Dear stacie it is not your job to make anyone understand how you feel.They either can't or won't,nothing we can do about that.We must do our best to understand and respect them and go ahead and live our lives enjoying who we are,and we do!.Nancy

[Staciej]

yes we do that lol And I am giving up hate too but it's hurting me more then helping thats for sure..She just plain refuses to understanand I give up.

[nancyish]

Dear Stacie ,do give up trying to change people but never give up trying to understand them and love them.This is what makes us bigger and better people.Don't feel bad if they don't understand,feel bad if you won't. Nancy.

[Samantha Kelsey]

I guess I knew when I was about 12 although looking back I was into it from about 5, I just didn't know there was anything wrong with it until I was 12. Maybe I was thinking right before reaching 12?

[Staciej]

I uderstand she's stuck in the old ways were we are seen but not herd. Or aloud to be who we are and we supose to be what we were born to be. Shes from Tenn. belives in a backwords mind set that there wasn't or isn't any in tenn. A guy should be a guy a girl shuld be a girl. Notcare what so ever that we are unhappy ,hate, or feal cheated that we don't get a choice in it at all.
Here is a talk we had lastnite....Why you try this female hormone for Ms? Tell your doctor you want off! I Say" mom there is no going back just ahead in it. She says"Thats not possiable how can a pill and this patch do that.
I said"It does'' Her"What ever goodbye".. she Calls back.. Why dint you cry at your brothers funeral but you did at your dads and at Jackson's house? I Said'' well brother's death I wasn't on hormones dad's and after I am. She says'' Oh what ever so this magic meds gives you fealings? I said'' Yes before I was crap couldnt show emotians or anything like that. I Said" Let me ask you a question? Have I ever showed I was depressed ? Her''.....Hell no thinking back you have never been that way just f@@k it! and dont give a damn when something bothered you. Me'Well I do get depressed and im not like that anymore and I did care about stuff.Just dad was strict and had a no cry rule men don't cry and walk it off.
( I use to not feal pain of any-type) her''Well what ever goodnite I don't want to hear about it anymore whatever...click..

I try to just take it all in and fight the pain and headace of it all. My doctor said its not healthy and im on zolloff for it. Well thats my normal day life.. Love all your words of encoragment and ty love you all Tgirl Stacie

[Beth-Lock]

I have been a late bloomer in everything. The fact that I wanted to be a girl was not obvious to me for a long time. Now it just seems to be best. Looking back, I can see it as the key to understanding a lot in my life. It all just burst into consciousness, after I started cross-dressing. I guess it was just repressed for all those years.

[Trudyann]

When I was about 6 or 7 (1937?) we listened to a radio show "Little Orphan
Annie." There was no TV then. In one episode, Annie and her friend Joe, were trapped in a house, being watched by the bad guys. Annie told Joe that the only way to escape without being seen by the bad guys, they would have to exchange clothes. The thought that Joe could put on Annie's dress thrilled me
and I never knew why. All through my early years, I prferred to play with the girls rather than boys. At about age 16, I heard about men in night clubs in Baltimore, dressed and dancing as girls. I thought to myself I have to go to Baltimore and find this place. Never did. The following years, it was wearing panties whenever the opertunity arrived. For many years, till I turned 69, did I ever dare tell anyone my secret, not even my best friends, or gays I knew, even though I knew they wouldn't care. I was ever so shy.
At age 69 was the turning point. Watching a TV show about a race car driver who was going to trans to become a woman. He said in the show that after a crash on the race trac, as he was being taken the hospital in the ambulance, he wondered what they would say in the ER when they found he was wearing panties. That did it for me. If a race car driver can wear panties, why can't I and not hide it? From there it has been a gradual but steady change in my life. Today I'm on my second month of estradiol, loving it, and don't care who knows. Finally starting to live the way I wished I could have years ago.

[goofus]

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I grew up on the bible belt where feminine attributes were an absolute abomination on a male. So I'm sure I suppressed a lot of feelings my entire life.

I think a lot of us can relate to that Dana!

[SusanMarie]

As far back as I can remember. But, I was not honest with myself until later in life. What a waste of time. Oh well, better late than never. :D

[AmandaM]

Since about four I knew I was different from the boys.

[Empress Lainie]

This should be good for a laugh. I was so oblivious I didn't even KNOW I was different, for a long time I thought all boys were like me.

[morgan pure]

I have to go back and read more. But,

Karen, you made me almost laugh. (And almost cry) Oh, God, I was so isolated. But I got lucky when I was 12. I stole a copy of "The Dictionary of Sexual Terms" from a candy store that had what passed in 1962 for legal porn. I had to shoplift it because they wouldn't sell it to me. It was so cool, I learned the word "fetish."

I love how Aubrey just took over.

M

[CindyLouWho]

I've known since before I was 10 years old. I first got to wear my mom's panties when I was 5 years old (1960) and started wearing all her clothes 2-3 years later. I got caught by my younger sister and brother when I was 9 or 10 and I already knew for sure. I went to catholic elementary school, and so I went through the praying gig on and off into my early 30s. During my late teens to early 30s I went through alcohol and drug abuse. I tried, very unsuccessfully, to be a ladies man (I'm not very good looking as a girl or a guy). I even trolled around until I had a few homosexual experiences, that's how I found out I wasn't gay. There were even a few minor self mutilations. When I was 32 (around 1988-89) and researching transition, I met and married my wife. I soon realized I was cheating on her with my femme side and one day three years later, when I was off from work and she was out, I got very drunk and when she came home I outed myself to her (Kind of stupid, huh?... but we're still together and in love after 20 years). A few years later I rediscovered pot and it was like a laxative for my brain. I now realize that it doesn't matter if I ever transition, I know who I am and my wife knows who I am and we love each other. I know that seems kind of corny but I think we'll live happily ever after.

[Jennifer Marie P.]

I knew when I was 6 that I wanted to be a girl and stated putting on panties and started loving girl things. Now that I made my move to a woman I love it.

[StaceyJane]

I knew I wanted to be a girl when I was in Kindergarten. By the time I was in Junior High I had heard about sex changes and I knew deep in my heart that's what I wanted. Still feel the same way today.

[Donnadcd]

And now the most frustrating part is feeling like I can't do anything about it.

Wanting to transition now just keeps building up inside of me.

VERY frustrating to say the least.

Not exactly sure where I am going to end up.

[TJ Tresa]

A way back when I was in the first grade, the teacher asked everyone to stand and tell who they wee and someting about themselves. I remember sitting there waiting for my turn and tinking I was going to tell everyone that I wished I was a girl. Another boy a few rows over from did just that and everyone including the teacher, except me laughed. When my turn came I never mentioned it, (wonder why?)
I did not find out that I could enjoy girls clothes until later. However I have been dressing almost as long as I can remember.

[Kimberly Marie Kelly]

My brother say's he knew I was more a girl than a male at age 11, I would have been 9 then. For me I was more like Dana Lane, "As far back as I remember I didn't feel comfortable in my male role. However at those times I never thought I was supposed to be a girl, either." I only realized recently. :battingeyelashes:

[Anna the Dub]

I was about 5 when I realised that other boys didn't really think like me. I knew I wanted to be a girl and at that age didn't think there was anything wrong with my way of thinking or that it was unusual in any way. It was only when I started suffering ridicule from my peers that I started to be a little bit more discreet. When I got a bit older (around 9 or so) I began to be very conscious that I was really different from boys, and they were noticing too, so I made a conscious effort to fit in, basically by pretending to like the things that boys liked (like football for instance) despite really having no interest in those things. And it went on from there, further and further into the closet, pretending to be somebody I really wasn't more and more, and ever increasingly unhappy.

[Empress Lainie]

It seems to be a very common experience among us mtf's that when we were little we preferred playing with the girls instead of the boys, even tho we were genetically a boy. I always did, and never played with a group of boys. I keep seeing more and more of the posters saying the same thing whether or not they knew at the time that they were transexual.

[saratranny]

When I was about 5, I started to steal my mum's tights and knickers and wear them whenever I could. Over the years I thought about wanting to be a woman full time, but with feet and hands that belong on a giant, I guess that will never happen lol. Now I'm happily married with a wife who understands my needs, and allows sara to come out and play once a week, either on her own or with my wife joining in.

[melissaK]

kinda always knew. some of my earliest memories of childhood are of being emotionally crushed when rebuked for my girl play. parents, family, teachers and friends all had a hand in telling me i was not allowed to behave as a girl. my life's been an odyssey of waxing and waning degrees of denial and self acceptance. self acceptance and acting like a girl is better.

hugs,
'lissa