Kristen Kelly
06-28-2009, 11:48 AM
I recieved an e-mail from a friend I hadn't heard from in a while and after reading what I wrote off the top of my head I shocked myself that I am where I am today. Here is her letter and my reply.
gap
hi hun was reading some of ur blogs.http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-ifrLKEg6aa_MrhB_BxePF3SFAzJLCQ--?cq=1&p=58 How has the gap between both worlds narrowed per ur words?? what changed? what happened??? what have u done different? im very interested & curious. ive never had the courage to go out anywhere in normal regular america just the gay/lesbian bars. and NEVER during the day. id luv to be myself 4 a few days in a row as u have done.
My Reply
Sorry for not getting back so soon, the change in my life was finding the confidence in myself that even if I get read to justify what I am doing I need to live a normal life as the person I see myself to be. I am living life not afraid of what others think but live a normal and sometimes boring life as a female. Part of my new found confidence was being out in "Drab" getting missed and maamed. Drab for me nowadays is little or no makeup, women's jeans or shorts, a gender-neutral top, my own shoulder length blonde highlighted hair, and small hoop earrings. I have been well accepted out in the real world and other than work I'm out as much as I can doing just the everyday things. I have not become a snob and still hang with my same old friends, finding my confidence didn't make me any better than anyone else. I was reminded of this the other night when out I ran into a young t-girl that was nearly totally passable, my first thought was how easy it was for her to pass, what gave her away was the fact she was totally uncomfortable even though she was with a GG at the bar and this was a TG friendly place. In my conversation with her found she didn't think she looked as good as she did. Well I feel I blend well in knowing how to dress and act to my surroundings, and when I'm out I feel like I belong there. I might make Diamonds this coming Fri, for me will be a first time there drop, me an e-mail would be a chance to meet all those I chat with online would love to meet face to face....... Kristen
A short 4 years ago wouldn't ventue outside my house unless it was the wee hours of night, to where I am to the point of thinking Could I / Do I want to go full time.
gap
hi hun was reading some of ur blogs.http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-ifrLKEg6aa_MrhB_BxePF3SFAzJLCQ--?cq=1&p=58 How has the gap between both worlds narrowed per ur words?? what changed? what happened??? what have u done different? im very interested & curious. ive never had the courage to go out anywhere in normal regular america just the gay/lesbian bars. and NEVER during the day. id luv to be myself 4 a few days in a row as u have done.
My Reply
Sorry for not getting back so soon, the change in my life was finding the confidence in myself that even if I get read to justify what I am doing I need to live a normal life as the person I see myself to be. I am living life not afraid of what others think but live a normal and sometimes boring life as a female. Part of my new found confidence was being out in "Drab" getting missed and maamed. Drab for me nowadays is little or no makeup, women's jeans or shorts, a gender-neutral top, my own shoulder length blonde highlighted hair, and small hoop earrings. I have been well accepted out in the real world and other than work I'm out as much as I can doing just the everyday things. I have not become a snob and still hang with my same old friends, finding my confidence didn't make me any better than anyone else. I was reminded of this the other night when out I ran into a young t-girl that was nearly totally passable, my first thought was how easy it was for her to pass, what gave her away was the fact she was totally uncomfortable even though she was with a GG at the bar and this was a TG friendly place. In my conversation with her found she didn't think she looked as good as she did. Well I feel I blend well in knowing how to dress and act to my surroundings, and when I'm out I feel like I belong there. I might make Diamonds this coming Fri, for me will be a first time there drop, me an e-mail would be a chance to meet all those I chat with online would love to meet face to face....... Kristen
A short 4 years ago wouldn't ventue outside my house unless it was the wee hours of night, to where I am to the point of thinking Could I / Do I want to go full time.