Kimberly Marie Kelly
07-13-2009, 09:33 PM
I finally know that he knew for a long time. My brother is out from the west coast on business and this last weekend I used the chance to tell my brother about being TS and my transitioning. I could not, out of fear tell him in person, so I left a letter in his Hotel room explaing my being transsexual and starting hormones. Everyone else in my immediate family has been told and was okay with it. I was expecting to have the hardest time with my brother but was surprised and shocked by what he said. To preface that when we came back from the city back to his hotel room he made a statement to me that he realized that God made me different and in my mind "I said You don't know the half of it." I left my letter with other material for him to read as well, that evening..
Well tonight, he called me to say he read it and was not surprised. What shocked me the most was what he said afterwards, that he knew from about age 11, I would have been 9 years old then, that I was more a girl in a boys body and thought more like a girl. His concern is for my health and warns me that both the HRT and surgery takes alot of of you. He say's that from seeing me this weekend, he feels that I have lost muscle tone and gained some weight and looked more tired than in previous visits, back in February. He told me he will support me and not disown me, both which were greatest fears about telling him. He is a christian and tells me that in his view the Bible does not mention anything specifically against transsexuals, as long as I stay believing in Jesus as Lord and Saviour, it's not his place to judge me or anyone for that matter only to love them as Christ loves us.
He as had other friends of his, transition so he has had some experience with others and warns me to be careful of relationships with men. As he says there are many men who are predators when it comes to transgendered people and to be careful with them, if I would choose a relationship with someone. As he mentions many TG individuals have fragile personalities and are easily attracted to people who are sympathetic to them and can be taken advantage of easily. He warns me the path is not easy because even though you don't hear comments directly from people, people are very two-faced, as he hears comments about his friend Mike who goes by the name Liz, from people who supposely are friendly to him. He say's he will probably still call me Mike as it is force of habit.. I told him he can..
I am so happy and relieved, he was the one person I thought would be the hardest person to tell and to think he knew I was more a girl since I was age 9. So tonight was a very good night for me.......:):):battingeyelashes::battingeyelashes:
Well tonight, he called me to say he read it and was not surprised. What shocked me the most was what he said afterwards, that he knew from about age 11, I would have been 9 years old then, that I was more a girl in a boys body and thought more like a girl. His concern is for my health and warns me that both the HRT and surgery takes alot of of you. He say's that from seeing me this weekend, he feels that I have lost muscle tone and gained some weight and looked more tired than in previous visits, back in February. He told me he will support me and not disown me, both which were greatest fears about telling him. He is a christian and tells me that in his view the Bible does not mention anything specifically against transsexuals, as long as I stay believing in Jesus as Lord and Saviour, it's not his place to judge me or anyone for that matter only to love them as Christ loves us.
He as had other friends of his, transition so he has had some experience with others and warns me to be careful of relationships with men. As he says there are many men who are predators when it comes to transgendered people and to be careful with them, if I would choose a relationship with someone. As he mentions many TG individuals have fragile personalities and are easily attracted to people who are sympathetic to them and can be taken advantage of easily. He warns me the path is not easy because even though you don't hear comments directly from people, people are very two-faced, as he hears comments about his friend Mike who goes by the name Liz, from people who supposely are friendly to him. He say's he will probably still call me Mike as it is force of habit.. I told him he can..
I am so happy and relieved, he was the one person I thought would be the hardest person to tell and to think he knew I was more a girl since I was age 9. So tonight was a very good night for me.......:):):battingeyelashes::battingeyelashes: