what do you do?

[Penelope Marie]

Hi girls

Well, what to do? currently i am out of work due to a lay off. i do seek employment however, this little town offers little in that category I am forced to live with my parents and two also out of work brothers. i truly hate it here for several reasons. my mother is mentally ill and well thats a story in it self. My problem is currently i am drowning in a pool of depression. I was just talking to some people in a chat room i frequent they say pull your self up. as if any one in real depression could do that. when one is as deep in the mire as i currently feel one does not snap out of it. i can't really dress due to the fact of my current residents. i am also under great stress so much in fact my chest feels tight and i have no appetite, also ITB has a hold on me. i feel so alone in my little world as if i am alone. I have never been the out going type but rather private and reserved. i know i need help however, until i can generate some income i don't know how that might happen. So what to do? I am lost and know not where to turn. So what to do? i need a therapist i know, i am pretty sure i am TG . any suggestions would be welcomed thank you ladies. i feel at home here with people of my nature.:sad:

[Saika]

Wow, you have lots going on there. I went on medication for anxiety and depression as things just got to be too much. It may help to talk to your doc to ease the lows you are experiencing.

Lets hope some work turns up for you, its really hard these days without a proper income.

At times when I have needed some private space to think and relax I have used the public library or local parks to get in some quiet time. Even a couple of hours a week helped to give my mind some rest.

Sorry to hear things are hard, hope it gets better soon.

[Sejd]

Hi Marie
Sounds like you are in a very difficult situation. My suggestion to you would be to try and leave your place. Look for work in some other and maybe larger city where you can have your own apartment. You definitely need to break the circle of depression. Have you seen a doctor for your problems? I don't know what kind of work you do, but maybe you could look for work in another town and get away from the situation which is clearly bringing you down.
Good luck
Sejd

[Penelope Marie]

hi
i have never seen a doctor for the depression, i have struggled with it for years but climb out of it usually. I have worked retail and some factory jobs which i really don't care to go back to the factory jobs that is . thats what i was doing when i was laid off. those jobs are shrinking rapidly in this nation as more close up shop and move over seas or Mexico. now i once read every one has a passion, and that passion should be the source of your income. i like that and well, i enjoy writing, lyrics, poems jingles and the such. my writing has brought me through some situations sorta like self therapy. thank you both for the feedback . i'll have to see what i can do.

[BreenaDion]

Ok Penelope its real simple. Yes believeme I will show you the way.

First you know that this is not a permanent situation.
Patience. will hold you for a while.
You need to squash the girly for now an suck it up am be a man.
Yes I know that sucks but pen its called " self preservation"
You have it cuz you asked for help.

Now the most important part an this is real and it will make you survive.
Tapas Acupressure.Technigue ( TAT)
Google it an do this at least twice daily .

It will keep you ALIVE!

My first therapist gave it to me , she is a cancer survivior an swears by it, it saved her.
I needed it for suicidial thought . You want the print out i'll send it to you.


[email protected] You can do this."its always darkest before dawn". I love you girl I will show you the way.

Love Breena:love:

[Penelope Marie]

thank you Breena
I will google this. and give it a try thanks

[BreenaDion]

OK Pen im gonna try an put the print out here, I messed up page 2 dont worring nothing got missed. sorry file is 150 times to big to upload I can email it Pen

its 5 pages with diagram an instruction on what an how to do it. You wont get the real stuff from google its been modified by judy.

LOVE Breena:love:

[Jessinthesprings]

Hi Marie
Sounds like you are in a very difficult situation. My suggestion to you would be to try and leave your place. Look for work in some other and maybe larger city where you can have your own apartment. You definitely need to break the circle of depression. Have you seen a doctor for your problems? I don't know what kind of work you do, but maybe you could look for work in another town and get away from the situation which is clearly bringing you down.
Good luck
Sejd

I agree. It sounds to me that the root of your troubles is your inability to be even somewhat independant. It sounds harsh but, you may have to start at the bottom. 0 skill/intelligence jobs (Fast food/Walmart) are often hireing and ironically doing very well during these times of economic turmoil. I know it is below many of us to take a job that a pimple faced kid would take, but hey work is work, and putting food on the table is oten more important than pride. Besides there is nothing that says you can't continue looking for work in your skill set. Quitting is easy... getting hired now that's the hard part.

Also like Sejd said moving is always an option, but that does not mean "big city". Good luck with your search.

[Aubrey Green]

Penelope, the first thing you have to do is keep your head up. As far as work, do not be afraid to try anything (legal), remember you need something until the right thing comes along. Push a lawnmower and edger around the neighborhood. I have friends who made a career out of that. On internet job searches, try the usuals (monster, hotjobs,etc..) but also check the not so usual. I was helping my son find a job and checked the usuals, but went to: snagajob.com and found listings for KMart, Kohls, Pennys and several other jobs that were not on the big dogs. These can all be temporary until what you want to do comes around. You can also look into trade schools, there are gov. grants available that do not have to be paid until you start working, and almost all have job placement upon graduating from the trade school.
You have to be strong for your self and your family. It is a test in your life. I remember having 32 cents to my name and carrying that for 8 days and that was all I had. There is something out there and with some strength of heart and mind, you will make everything work out. We are behind you and will help in anyway we can. Heck PM your city and I will help you with job searches. Good luck! :hugs:

[Mariah]

out of work "disabled" for 2 years now. looking for a job but I was told by the state unemployment office that I was "unemployable" in Wv. so ya I need to move lol. I also stuck at my parents house.


Mariah

[crossdrezzer1]

get some cymbalta pills and think slowly and sort things out as they come,,,,

[Stephanie Heplby]

There is some good job advice here. Take this thought a step farther. Pen, you said you were interested in writing. Look for any kind of gig related to that. There are loads of editing and writing jobs available out there. There are many non-paid jobs that might be loss-leaders for a real job at a later date.

Consider writing pieces for one of your local papers (every region has those non-subscription papers that survive completely on local news and advertising). Some of their stories are written by people who want to get published, since they have little staff. Be one of those people.

Another job web site to consider is sologig.com. This type of site is intended to focus on short-term work, so you might find inroads for writing and editing.

Take comfort knowing that, if you can actually write, you are one of very few people in the U.S. who can. There are people who would love to have you work for them.

If you are really interested in the creative-type outlet, you might want to get yourself close to the Research Triangle, which does not even require leaving NC. The music and arts scene is much better there than in some much larger cities in the Eastern U.S.

Regarding the depression...

There is a lot of talk on this thread about pulling yourself together. You already said how hard that is. People who tell you to just man-up (or something similar) have obviously never been clinically depressed or have radically different chemical systems. It hurts to see someone suffer like this.

There are things you can do in a cash-strapped situation.

You might consider public options. There are often social workers available in even the most backward parts of the U.S. Even better would be to look at student and/or intern options in your area. If you are near a university (and it is hard to be in NC and not be near some university), look into their programs. Students are often required to perform counseling either free or at significantly reduced rates. These students are always supervised by qualified professionals.

Combining this notion of univeristy-related care and your desire to stay in writing and creative pursuits, look to Chapel Hill, Raleigh, Durham. Duke has a fantastic medical school, so they probably have some good student programs in psychology and social work.

Take my good thoughts with you!

[Noxvictum]

Life is tough all over. Sometimes, there isn't crap we can do. My advice? A hobby. Seriously. Doesn't have to be much. Hell, i just draw. Did it for years at a time, kept me sane. Exercise is a good one, and you even get a nifty endorphin rush. I like the Rocky quote from the new one. It's not how hard you can hit, but how hard you can get hit. Just don't bottle it all up. That's the worst thing you can do.

[BreenaDion]

Have more imformation for you Pen. I also thought it would be nice to share with the rest of the girls who can use this treatment.

TAT International, email : [email protected] web site www.tatlife.com

Paticia Thatcher, LICSW, The Lifeworks Center, 50 Dudley St., Cambridge,Ma 02140 617-661-1277

email [email protected] www.thelifeworkscenter.com



PS Penelope I dont think you need the other pages . just an overview of the page I typed for you, Need more I am here for you girl

Love Bree :love:

[BreenaDion]

Yes I started going backwards , cuz of the stalling an nothing going forward. So what I did Pen is use tapas again to put breena back on the couch for a while. I had to ,was getting depressed again an other bad things. Being girly girly all the time , meant I wasnt getting my stuff done. Living on a pink cloud...... its ok minda ya but my plate is full an nothing was being done by being girly.

I have fixed so much of me in passed decades, wunder why I didnt become a therapist myself. Will power mostly, able to corect bad elements. The switching back an forth from male to female in total highs an lows was doing me in. I had to put a stop to it.

I guess it is true I am unigue at least in the way my brain swiched from being 100% male to almost feamle in a mater of a few months. I need more rechearch on that but I am rare case of transition of the mind. Now I am mostly male an gonna tray that way untile I empty my plate. Only untile I am sstisfied with the progress of life an where we (family) need to go.

I will try an take hormones now sept 3rd. I still am a woman, I still will go forward. I have a full plate an best an easiest way is for male to work at it. I cant got threw changes an spend all my inheritance on transtion of the body. Like I said before I need to leave a legacy to my children FIRST. Then being a woman is possible with open arms, heart,mind an soul. I just cant do it now. So I let the little girl out once an a great while when I feal like it.

Love Bree :love: