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lisa marseau
10-02-2009, 04:11 AM
I finally screwed up enough courage to ask my Family Doc. about hormone therapy and telling him about my body issues. To my surprise, Not a glimpse of reaction from him. That was not the way that I pictured it going down (did I mention I live in S.Carolina?).
Anyway, I got a referral to see an endocrinologest in Charlotte, NC. The date...9/29 10:00 am. Okay so now starts my list of a thousand questions. In the back of my mind I am thinking this guy is going to send me to some shrink for maybe a year or so. At a hundred bucks an hour and I start thinking ok, I can get rid of my street rod and maybe my trans-am to pay for this. I read through a few notes that I have been saving through the years and checked this site. I asked a quick question and a few quick replies ( Thanks ).
The morning comes and I figure to go as suggested to make it certin that I am for real and to go as Lisa. Do a complete shave and expect a complete physical exam. Two hours and one plugged-up drain later I was ready for hair and make-up. I made sure that I did not get carried away and look like a "flaming" freak!
As I walked in my heart was pounding :o . I filled out the forms on a tablet p.c. and not on paper. Wow! A modern Doctor. Blood pressure check...130/80! Pulse 110. The nurse asked me if I was nervious. I think my reply was...Duh. Doctor came in (nice guy kinda young by my standards down to earth) and started off by trying to make me relax by closing my eyes and take a deep breath. There were no dumb questions like why do you want to change or why are you here? This guy has experiance was the thought that I had running through the back of my mind. After about the third question I felt a great weight was lifted and the nerves went away. This was an interview not a consultation. We talked for a half hour about family, friends, loved ones, work, med. history and life style. At that point he said that I needed to wait because we needed to talk some more. He had another appointment waiting (not rude at all). He gave me some pretty glossy bi-folds to look at and a form to read and sign. He handed me a pen and left the room. As I sat there and read the form and picked up the pen I noticed that the pen said SCC 2009 and had two hands shaking.
Doc came back in and I asked. Did you go? He looked at me and said..." I gave that pen to you on purpose. I wanted to know if noticed." He then told me a another patent had given it to him. (thanks cd.com) He then told me that he was supposed to be a speaker at the conference but had to back out. We went over some more history and then he asked if I had any questions. I reached for my bag and... Damn, I left my question sheet on my desk! Most of all the questions were answered any way.
He told me that I had to make a choice. Smokes or estrogen. I cannot have both. The risk of blood clots would be too great. I am already on Chantix and have been for a month. I still like to take a drag though. I have been a heavy smoker for a long time. I have already decided to quit a while ago so no big deal right? Wrong! Smoking is HELL to quit! As I write this it is my third day with-out a drag or anything (God please help me to be smoke free) When I am certain that I have quit I need to go and have my blood tested. Then I can go back to the office and tell the receptionist that I am ready and in my file there are two scripts for me.
Anyone who was a smoker and has quit knows how hard this is. All friends and members... I need support. Wish me luck. I would have never come this far on my own with-out the knowledge and support of like minded people on this site.

Lisa

MarieTS
10-03-2009, 02:51 AM
Lisa, congratulations on getting up the bravery to see the Dr. That's a big step forward. If you think about it, that took a lot more courage than giving up smoking, right? SO, with that in mind, continue your quest to become the real Lisa you so badly want and need. Good luck, and remember that if you REALLY want to do this, you will!:daydreaming:

Starling
10-03-2009, 05:06 AM
Lisa, you can quit smoking! If you need help, send me a PM. I quit sixteen years ago, after thirty years of impersonating a chimney, and I haven't seriously wanted a smoke since the day I quit. I'll tell you how you can do it.

:) Lallie

lisa marseau
10-03-2009, 06:59 AM
Thank you,
I have given up soo much over the years. I think only those that have been up our creek with out the paddle can only understand. I have this list that I made years ago. I am finaly going to follow it. In the past I only made baby steps and would eventuly fall flat on my face. This time will be different. I know it will. I am getting too damn old to play around anymore.
Quitting the smokes is hard VERY hard. I have held tough. I am no I HAVE to quit! Not just for the meds, but for me!
I will be born again.
Thanks again and please keep the encouragement coming.
Lisa

Jenny Chen
10-03-2009, 02:32 PM
Congratulation! I also just recently started on this path like you, and well all i am going to say is you are in for a treat! :o

lisa marseau
10-04-2009, 03:29 PM
Congratulation! I also just recently started on this path like you, and well all i am going to say is you are in for a treat! :o

Even tho this is my path to being who I am... I am scared to death! Wife not sure but supportive. My kids just to know if this is going to chage their allowance.
Right now, first the smokes. Then I will get script filled and then I will go from there.To some it sounds like baby steps but for me... Mile stones!
No way am I going keep living a lie.

Teri Jean
10-04-2009, 09:21 PM
Lisa, I'm so happy for you and your post sounds so familiar to my own, smokes included.
I have a wonderful doc also and although he did not have the pen the help he has given surprised me also. I wish you the best.

Huggs Teri

Miranda09
10-04-2009, 09:46 PM
Best of luck Lisa. You've got a tough road ahead of you, but you can do it if you this badly enough, and it sounds like you do. :)

Jenny Chen
10-05-2009, 02:43 AM
Even tho this is my path to being who I am... I am scared to death! Wife not sure but supportive. My kids just to know if this is going to chage their allowance.
Right now, first the smokes. Then I will get script filled and then I will go from there.To some it sounds like baby steps but for me... Mile stones!
No way am I going keep living a lie.

Oh don't get me wrong, I am scared shit less! I haven't told my mom yet and I have NO CLUE on how she will react, and by the way things are going i will mostly likely have to cut off connections to my family in Taiwan.

In short shit is going to hit the fan, and well I am going to do what ever I can to minimize the damage for my mom, due to Asian family social structure, if word of me gets out she'll lose most of the respect she has as a educator.

By the way I am only 23, so it's not as hard for me to start over from scratch, so it's hard for me to relate to your situation, but that doesn't stop me trying to help a shipmate. Because weather we like it or not we're stuck on the same boat :devil:

lisa marseau
10-23-2009, 04:26 AM
The smokes are out of my system forever! YES! That was the hardest thing. Starting Monday spiro and estrogen. I keep thinking... What the hell have you been waiting for? Why didn't I get off my lazy a** years ago?

morgan51
10-23-2009, 06:59 AM
I used the patch for a couple weeks to get the craving under control best thing I ever did and probably the hardest thing I ever quit. I am 8 yrs smoke free now best of luck to you sis. Morgan