With age comes desire?

[jasilyn]

hello girls. i am seeking some opinions on where i find myself and where i see myself heading as i climb towards upper thirties and am curious to see if others have experienced this 'change' as well. . .i have CD since early teens, but the older i get the stronger the desire is to stop wasting time and live as a female already. . . i guess i am curious to see if others have started CD'ing as a sexual thing and found themselves many years later in a way they never thought they would be. . was i in denial all those years or am i changing with age?

[JenniferZ2009]

I used to CD as a sexual aid. Then I found I liked the clothes and now I am in my early transition to female.

[Empress Lainie]

Only my opinion you know.
I have noticed so many of us transexuals don't start transitioning until their 50's or later. However many of them were CDing from their teens or earlier.

I am not typical. I was always TS but didn't realize why I was different until I was 72. I went 24/7 in one day. Been over 2 yrs now and I work as a normal woman, and am accepted as such, even though I haven't even had electrolysis except for a 2 inch patch on a breast, or surgery, or HRT. But I have used phytoestrogens for 18yrs, note that others on here say they have no effect. They are entitled to their beliefs. I have the evidence.

So you may find as you grow older that the desire becomes more demanding and you may or not eventually transition.

People are different and what works for one doesn't usually work for another.

[Marcie R.]

I have crossdressed for most of my life. I have also remained in the closet. It is true that the desire to CD becomes stronger as you age. At first it was sexual when I was in my early adult years, but as I became older, my main purpose to dress was to become as close as I could, to pass as a woman.

[Jennifer Marie P.]

I crossdressed in the early years and then I made my transition to live as a woman.

[Eileen]

For me the desire to dress grew as I got older. At 55 the desire was very stong and by 60 I knew I wanted to live as a woman. At that time it was not possible, but a few years later I was able to live and work f/t as a woman. After a year of living f/t I knew just living as a woman was not enough. I began the process of transitioning and completed my surgeries this year. If your desires are getting stronger, it may be time for you to start seeing a therapist.

Eileen

[jasilyn]

Thanks to all who replied. i find myself both excited and scared when i ponder the future. it probably IS time to find a therapist. but part of me knows that once i do, there'd be no turning back. but another part of me doesnt want to turn back. i have come a very long way in terms of accepting myself yet its still so confusing. . .most days, becoming a woman is ALL i think about but there's the occasional day when i'm still ashamed of even thinking it. but at the rate i'm going, another year or two will likely make a difference.

[Teri Jean]

Jasilyn, I think a lot of people transition for their own reasons and at their own time. Some are young and some of us are not as young. Personally you are much younger than I but it has to be when you are ready. You also need to realize it doesn't have to be where Beth is or Teri is but where you need to be, so please see a therapist that is educated in gender identity issues to help you find your path and goals. JMHO

Teri

[carrie-ann]

I agree with most of the post. I have always loved it and it does get stronger for me too.