Kinky with Ink
10-27-2009, 11:53 PM
[/QUOTE]So I've been thinking deep and hard about who I really am and who I want to be. I had come to terms with that fact yeah, I like men along with women, and I also like to feel feminine by dressing up or w/e else. It took me awhile to figure this out for myself so once I had, I started thinking about telling my GF. I had no idea how to tell her about who I really was underneath the facade I put up for everybody else.
I had planned on telling her about the dressing part during our snowboarding trip to Colorado in January but we were having one of those open emotional talks that couples have from time to time. Lately I've been trying to change my appearance to androgynous as possible within the limits of what my workplace will allow. I got my eyebrows waxed, new stylish hair, clothes that show off my body more and so on.
My GF knew I had done this recently but not why. She's always been more than supportive of anything I've done in the past so I decided to tell her something I've never told anybody other than you, my supportive sisters, that I'm bisexual. I was expecting her to act like most of the people in my life and pull back in disgust or anger. Instead she accepted me for who I am. She didn't try and question who I thought I was. I broke down and explained to her everything from that point on. I told her that yes, I am attracted to men but I would never cheat on her with one. I don't know how I could ever think about that when you have somebody who cares so much about you that they will accept you for who you are regardless.
So after I told her about me being bi, she was super supportive so I decided to tell her about this part of me. I explained to her that ever since I was very young I've wished I was born female instead of male. I told her I had been dressing since I was about 6 off and on and that I still was. She sat and listened as I explained how my parents threatened to send me to a biblical boarding school for miscreants when the found out about my dressing and how all the shrinks told me there was something wrong with me and it needed to be "fixed". I told her how I liked to feel feminine and dressed because that's how I felt on the inside. I've never, and I mean never opened up to anybody like this ever before and expected her to act like everybody else would. Instead she told me she loved me and no matter what I did or how messed up I thought I was she would always be there to support me. She said even if I decided to finally come out into public dressed she would be there walking right next to me. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that she didn't freak out. I don't even know what to think other than this is the woman I've been waiting for. Even when I let her into the deepest recesses of my mind and shared all my secrets with her, she still accepted me for who I am, who I want to be, and that she would be there by my side through all of it. There's always been a word I said I would never use until I meant it but yeah, I Love her:love:
I did explain to her that yes, I do still like being a guy some of the time and doing guy things. I do still one day want to settle down with a family of my own. I explained that this is who I was and none of it has to change anything between us. I know this sort of story is typical for these pages but how did I get so lucky. And to think that me and her broke up for a few years but our feelings for each other brought us back together. I don't think I'll be letting her go anytime soon. Sorry about the wall of words but I'm just so happy and excited right now. I finally found the one person I can trust with my heart and mind in full and who gives me her's in return. Oh god I'm gonna cry now....
I had planned on telling her about the dressing part during our snowboarding trip to Colorado in January but we were having one of those open emotional talks that couples have from time to time. Lately I've been trying to change my appearance to androgynous as possible within the limits of what my workplace will allow. I got my eyebrows waxed, new stylish hair, clothes that show off my body more and so on.
My GF knew I had done this recently but not why. She's always been more than supportive of anything I've done in the past so I decided to tell her something I've never told anybody other than you, my supportive sisters, that I'm bisexual. I was expecting her to act like most of the people in my life and pull back in disgust or anger. Instead she accepted me for who I am. She didn't try and question who I thought I was. I broke down and explained to her everything from that point on. I told her that yes, I am attracted to men but I would never cheat on her with one. I don't know how I could ever think about that when you have somebody who cares so much about you that they will accept you for who you are regardless.
So after I told her about me being bi, she was super supportive so I decided to tell her about this part of me. I explained to her that ever since I was very young I've wished I was born female instead of male. I told her I had been dressing since I was about 6 off and on and that I still was. She sat and listened as I explained how my parents threatened to send me to a biblical boarding school for miscreants when the found out about my dressing and how all the shrinks told me there was something wrong with me and it needed to be "fixed". I told her how I liked to feel feminine and dressed because that's how I felt on the inside. I've never, and I mean never opened up to anybody like this ever before and expected her to act like everybody else would. Instead she told me she loved me and no matter what I did or how messed up I thought I was she would always be there to support me. She said even if I decided to finally come out into public dressed she would be there walking right next to me. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that she didn't freak out. I don't even know what to think other than this is the woman I've been waiting for. Even when I let her into the deepest recesses of my mind and shared all my secrets with her, she still accepted me for who I am, who I want to be, and that she would be there by my side through all of it. There's always been a word I said I would never use until I meant it but yeah, I Love her:love:
I did explain to her that yes, I do still like being a guy some of the time and doing guy things. I do still one day want to settle down with a family of my own. I explained that this is who I was and none of it has to change anything between us. I know this sort of story is typical for these pages but how did I get so lucky. And to think that me and her broke up for a few years but our feelings for each other brought us back together. I don't think I'll be letting her go anytime soon. Sorry about the wall of words but I'm just so happy and excited right now. I finally found the one person I can trust with my heart and mind in full and who gives me her's in return. Oh god I'm gonna cry now....